Hand on the gate

[Lubo]

Wow, Wonderful :)
YES :)

Im trying to think about things like the day ahead and work and its just not relevant or needed. Haha

LoL :) Notice where the thoughts are coming from :)

sweet happiness is here :)
Waiting your next sharing,
Much Love
Lubo

PS, Today, 30th of June, 6 pm CET we gather in zoom looking at
Identification with body and thoughts.
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[LoveEd]

Hey Lubo

It was so nice to see you and Luchana last evening. Such a lovely vibe!!! Thank you for your sharings and wise words. I will try and join earlier next time!
I woke up this morning knowing there is no doer - it was a beautiful feeling - I have been feeling very happy all day - and there is a sense of perfectness in everything. There really is nothing going on
Little has been done today around my job, with the sense of there is no one to control or do here, and i have recognised this in the others. There was more kindness and lightness in interactions. Yet, on occasion, still guilt, still thoughts around 'not doing my job' and 'letting people down'. It doesnt feel as intense as once upon a time, and these thoughts didnt guilt me in to any action :-) yet it was noticed and I guess I need to really notice where these are coming from ... just thoughts.
There is a feeling of flip flopping between clarity and being Charmain, but definitely something has moved / changed.
Im not sure where this is at now!
Thank you so much
With so much love
Charmain
<3

[Lubo]

Hi Charmain,

It was so nice to see you and Luchana last evening. Such a lovely vibe!!! Thank you for your sharings and wise words. I will try and join earlier next time!

Oo, thank you. I am also happy that you appear in the meeting :)
Sharing and exploring This is like an addiction to love :)

I woke up this morning knowing there is no doer - it was a beautiful feeling - I have been feeling very happy all day - and there is a sense of perfectness in everything. There really is nothing going on
Little has been done today around my job, with the sense of there is no one to control or do here, and i have recognised this in the others. There was more kindness and lightness in interactions.

So beautiful.
Yes, everything is perfect
Yes, there is no one to control or to do! Excellent!
It is wonderful that others are also This is seen, there is no one with free will and responsibility.

Yet, on occasion, still guilt, still thoughts around 'not doing my job' and 'letting people down'. It doesnt feel as intense as once upon a time, and these thoughts didn't guilt me in to any action :-) yet it was noticed and I guess I need to really notice where these are coming from ... just thoughts.

Yes, you are on the right way. You noticed this voice of shame and guilt this voice is not a voice of truth, this old pattern that is playing around. I stoped pay it. Try to not fight or argue but just ignore it and embrace the feeling that is pops up in this very moment...and you are here again.

There is a feeling of flip flopping between clarity and being Charmain, but definitely something has moved / changed.

Thanks for sharing this.
When doubts are coming notice what is the story that playing in the moment?
Then notice that the story assume the doer, controller, responsibility and notice what reality is? is there such element ?
Stop pay attention to the story And embrace emotion which appears - even anger or sadness are welcome. And you are here.
Notice also that to find that there is no self is not e state where to abide.
Everything can appear but noting can create a self, check don't believe me :)

Much Love
Lubo

[LoveEd]

Hello Lubo!

There have been lots of events and things happening over the weekend with a lot of noticing responses, people, expectations, emotions The intensity of a 'reality' is fading and there is less reaction, response. There are thoughts around whether this seems 'uncaring' to the 'others' - and then remembering to notice that too. It's impossible to 'know' where this is at. Impossible to know anything - theres a sense of things unfolding perhaps, like something needs to keep seeing and seeing. Again, difficult to put in to words. Nothing is being taken in a serious way, all can be noticed and no longer interpreted as before - and with that a lightness and ease.
Still doubt and some guilt, all for noticing. Theres a sense of need to keep noticing. Still glimmering!

Thank you Lubo

With so much love
Charmain

[Lubo]

Hi Charmain,
Thanks for the reply.

There have been lots of events and ... emotions ...

Please explore the emotions/sensations/feelings, as if they are appearing for the first time, you know nothing about them, explore them without burdening yourself with any prior knowledge:
- where emotions are coming from? Can you pin a point?
- is it known when any emotion will appear?
-is it known what emotion will appear before it appear?
- doe's the emotion know anything or there is just emotion?
- doe's emotion know that is coming for someone?
- doe's emotion disappear from someone or there is just no such emotion?
- is it really true that emotions are coming to a centre "me"?
Does the wind coming for someone special? To a me?
Doe's the wind belong to someone?
Does the wind personal?
Does the emotion personal?

Enjoy :)
Lubo

[Lubo]

Hi Charmain,

Let's continue , if you are OK?

Love
Lubo

[LoveEd]

Hi Lubo

Thank you for the nudge Lubo. I totally drifted off this week. There had been a loss of momentum here. Your email is helping me to come back. Thank you!!!! Right now, I can feel a strong sense of pressure (feels like its just under the emotional radar), constantly weighing - there are thoughts arising with it - when I explore, it is impossible to pin point a source, a memory arises perhaps - no its not personal, it doesnt know anything - i would like to spend the day with this Lubo - I have a free day - any other guidance is of course so gratefully received. I absolutely want to continue.

With love

Charmain

[Lubo]

Hi Charmain,
Oo, thanks for sharing this

Right now, I can feel a strong sense of pressure (feels like its just under the emotional radar), constantly weighing - there are thoughts arising with it

What if emotions indicate the level of non-acceptance and thoughts indicate what is not accepted?
What is it that bothers you?
Look around, this is your beloved, fall in love with him. Everything is him.
He wants you to love him, not fear him.
He does not want to be judged, but accepted exactly as he is.
And notice what happens?

Much love
Lubo

[LoveEd]

thank you ... perfect ... i will write shortly .. beautiful questions

[LoveEd]

it feels like a shield of emotion - a refusal to accept? with a sense of a confusion over what is not accepted
What bothers me? its undefinable - just 'something' like a scramble of stuff - hints of not worthy, being a fraud thoughts
Right now with my beloved, a thought of being incapable of loving
there is a screen up between a 'me' and what is here - the love of the beloved - he wants me to love him is a whole new perception - actually wanting to be loved by something ..... wow
i want to love him and not fear him and i dont want to judge .. at all .. i really dont! (lots of tears and wretching happening here) - i will write again with a bit more time sitting with this

Thank you x

[Lubo]

Wow, Charmain,
such a beautiful opening.

I invite you to look gently this ball of emotions+thoughts.
Notice that there is an idea that this is a self/me?
Look more closely is there a self?

Look also behind this ball - what is there?
Is there a real entity where this can stick to?

During this looking stay one with the beloved/with This.

Much love
Lubo

[LoveEd]

Good morning Lubo

thank you so much ... more peace this morning! yesterday was intense and confusing .. like a fight / tussle was taking place somewhere but it wasnt really there!! Today it has settled .... and your words this morning are extremely helpful - i have again a day to myself today so I can really be with this (now the fighting has stopped!), staying one with the beloved

I will keep you posted

Much love and have a wonderful day!

Charmain x

[LoveEd]

Hey Lubo
What to write? Today the split between mind and Reality was really seen, and with that the association to the mind as a 'me'. Its a shift seeing something completely differently. A whole bunch of things happened in a flow . i watched your video from thursday talking about time (and so nice to see you both :-), then something clicked. Then i saw something on cause and effect - whilst painting a wall. Changing the colour, remembering the beloved and the craziness of thinking anything else. Anything else is just mind. JUST thought. Just story - i saw that . .. it all could just have all been fun if not for the mind fears and judgements - all of it - everything. The overlay is crazy identification with nothing. Then a sense of seeing that when the mind stops chopping, dividing, judgement, resisting, fixing, storying - there is no separation. The separation is only the mind. Wow.

This feels delicate or tentative or something, whilst revisiting memes, concepts, events from the mind to see how they look now. Wow. What the hell. What a load of meaningless crap. All about peoples feelings and reputation and money and pleasure.
Charmain knew this all of course :-)
So this is where I am right now. I again look forward to being with this even more tomorrow.
Thanks for pulling me back up
Much love
x

[Lubo]

Wow Charmain,

What a joy to read this :)

What to write? Today the split between mind and Reality was really seen, and with that the association to the mind as a 'me'. Its a shift seeing something completely differently. A whole bunch of things happened in a flow . i watched your video from thursday talking about time (and so nice to see you both :-), then something clicked. Then i saw something on cause and effect - whilst painting a wall. Changing the colour, remembering the beloved and the craziness of thinking anything else. Anything else is just mind. JUST thought. Just story - i saw that . .. it all could just have all been fun if not for the mind fears and judgements - all of it - everything. The overlay is crazy identification with nothing. Then a sense of seeing that when the mind stops chopping, dividing, judgement, resisting, fixing, storying - there is no separation. The separation is only the mind. Wow. This feels delicate or tentative or something, whilst revisiting memes, concepts, events from the mind to see how they look now. Wow. What the hell. What a load of meaningless crap. All about peoples feelings and reputation and money and pleasure.
Charmain knew this all of course :-)

Yes, concepts and thoughts :)
"chopping, dividing, judgement, resisting, fixing, storying - there is no separation" LoL, Yes.
There is no one who makes things happened :) Just Live :)

So this is where I am right now. I again look forward to being with this even more tomorrow.
Thanks for pulling me back up

Wonderful.
Notice this concept called mind, which points that there is something independent that has the power to think, to live a life of its own, even to influence life, but is there such a centre? :)

Much love
Lubo

[LoveEd]

Thank you again Lubo - and for the poem <3

THE MIND! a concept, an idea of a construct - a noun to try and make sense (of itself!)

It's not real and has no 'centre', does anything have a centre? even centre is a concept

All these things seemingly happening - just happening - with no way for it to be independent - there is no power, no influence, - the words independent, power and influence cannot make sense here or be attributed to anything AT ALL - nothing can be even attributed to anything !!! there is no attribution! concepts that just slip off to nowhere as they weren't there to begin with. These concepts are all relational - one thing contrasted with another - and there is no another. There just is .. peace with this. Peace when not chopping, changing, dissecting, attributing! 'Making sense' is a non pursuit! And no one even doing it. Thank you. More clarity with the exploration of what has seemed like a workable concept - especially in my line of work!

Much love
xx