You said that
Lisa's 17 videos from YouTube 1000% resonates with me.
What resonated most?
Here are Lisa's videos
https://www.youtube.com/user/OneSpaciousness/videos
The most resonated one is "Celebration 1-10-12"
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2JdIuIdL-_o
This is why I resonated most (although why is relative and changes..)
The video describes the vivid and live moment of awakening.
"This is Presentation.. , subatomic particles of the space world were visible, palpable, alive and recognized as this presence... this being was the same as every other presence of the being.. There is only one presence.. one isness... this now looks at these eyes to you which is also it.. beingness of all, that all what is... itself being... being as this presence, being as the presence of lamp, wall, window, the shirts, hair, presence of you... it is Consciousness, the energy moves through itself causes itself to arise it's something that appears different and then when it's done arising, it falls back into itself. all ever was and all ever could be...A greeting from this presentation and iseness that looks out its eyes to your presentation going into the Awareness, the Isness, the Oneness, Being that is looking out of your eyes here. You are seen, you are seen, not as you, but as everything that is..."
Here talk does not go down to the level of listener much. It describes What IS as clear and vivid as possible, I think.
I resonated very clearly that there is no entity behind. If there is, we have to figure out where the entity comes from, which is not final Truth. It totally makes sense to me that there is Nothing, which arise as everything. It appears duality, so many things in the world starting from sand, animals, humans, stars, galaxy, universe, whatever it is.
It also makes sense to me your saying "Experiencing". Only experiencing is happening. No entity such as God, Consciousness, Totality behind. We just call what is God, Consciousness, Totality only when we have to discuss about it.
I don't see it yet, I don't know it yet. I don't know why, although sages told me that there is false sense of "I" or "Self" blinding me. Anyway I dropped the 'whys'.. Apparently, I don't see, but feel very natural when I hear Lisa's talk.
Let me just tell you some story behind...
This occurred recently, about few months ago. Wayne's saying years ago has lingered in me, "Does the bird which was singing out side exits to the one who didn't see/hearing it?" and Zhuang Zhu's butterfly quote "Now I do not know whether it was then I dreamt I was a butterfly, or whether I am now a butterfly dreaming I am a man."
The two quotes lingered in my years and it was so clear to me that they are the same pointer pointing to Truth when I heard Lisa's another video saying "there is no 7 billion's worlds... only one..". The quotes turned to "The bird exist to Whom?", "Who is the dreamer of butterfly or Zhuang Zhu?". Then, those two quotes lingered long time were dropped.
I had not figured out how "false I or self" related to "no entity exists, all there is consciousness, everything oneness...". Then it seemed clear to me that the "false I or self" whatever blinds me disappear, the Truth appears.
Now, I dropped those notions as well. I dropped all notions, teachings.
Thank you, _()_