Re: A bit worried about this process.
Posted: Tue Aug 12, 2014 4:02 pm
OK Rich S xxx
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No! I've tried this a few times. I can't make myself feel happy by just thinking myself happy. It doesn't work. Nor can I make myself love something or feel anxious by just thinking. So thinking about an emotion alone can't invoke it. For example I can't hate the computer by just looking at it and trying to think "hate". But if the computer started doing its own thing (as sometimes computers tend to do !!), and not what I wanted it to do, or it lost all my information, or wouldn't print a document for some reason, then this could invoke an emotion (probably not as strong as hate, but close :-). So it seems that emotions are brought about by the experience of events and not by thought.OK a little test. Think yourself to be happy - right now. Do it! Make it happen! Does it? Try it with any emotion you like - can it made to happen from thought.
This is more complicated (as if the last bit was simple ! ).Now where do thoughts come from? Do you make them come and go? can you make thinking happen?
I can't see any mechanism for this. It's not possible that I am deciding what to think before it is thought. Otherwise it would already have been thought. If it were true, then when was the decision to make the pre-thought thought made ? And what about the thought that preceded that one??See if you can catch you deciding what to think before it is thought!
OK lets look at story. Story is one thought following another. Story is a thought following a sensation trying to explain it of link it to past or future. Story is thought based on habitual responses. Story explains, describes and labels everything. Some stories are useful. Look at you own thinking and thoughts to see this.No! I've tried this a few times. I can't make myself feel happy by just thinking myself happy. It doesn't work. Nor can I make myself love something or feel anxious by just thinking. So thinking about an emotion alone can't invoke it. For example I can't hate the computer by just looking at it and trying to think "hate". But if the computer started doing its own thing (as sometimes computers tend to do !!), and not what I wanted it to do, or it lost all my information, or wouldn't print a document for some reason, then this could invoke an emotion (probably not as strong as hate, but close :-). So it seems that emotions are brought about by the experience of events and not by thought.
OK – here are you experiencing the past, or are you actually experiencing a thought or thoughts now? And with that thought or thoughts – a story has been attached? Is there a reaction possibly based on habit also attached to this story? Have a look.However - and I'm not certain about this bit - there still seems to be a back door into emotion. For example, when I think of an event that has happened in the past, the death of a relative for example, it can still make me feel sad almost to the point of tears yet this experience is not happening now, it's in the past, possibly years in the past. Could it be that some memories are so strong that I buy into them fully and they become direct experience now???
It's not quite the same when trying to invoke emotions from events that may happen in the future. For example I tried to imagine myself winning the lottery !! Although it was not an unpleasant fantasy, I can't say it made me feel excited or euphoric or happy. But rather set of a train of thought about what I would do with all the money. There were parts that made me smile, but no emotion was as strong as thinking about actual events in the past. Could it be that emotion was lacking because I was unable to relate to this fantasy because I knew it hadn't actually happened?
Please keep me informed as to your feelings of fear Rich - I have a very good exercise for looking right at it. OK.I'm still on the look out for who's making the choices. But I don't think I'm going to find anyone am I ??? That's a bit scarey to be honest.
Excellent! Now – can you control thought in any way shape or form? Give me an example if you can.Where do thoughts come from? The answer to that as far as I can tell is "I don't know". They are not started by me! But what I've noticed is that most of the time there is very little original thought going on. Mostly there is commentary, lots of it. Commentary seems to deceive me into thinking that I am thinking about something when in fact I'm just filling in the gaps until the thinking arrives. Hope that doesn't sound stupid.
It feels like constant noise occasionally embellished by some new thought that takes the commentary along a different track.
Do thoughts make a link between thoughts? Out of thought – are thoughts linked? Where do thoughts go?What I have observed is that when a problem needs to be solved, I tend to use my senses to look at the issue (talking about practical problems here - I'm not a theorist ). It's a bit like trying a jigsaw piece a various different angles and rotations, and if it doesn't fit, another idea of what might fit comes from that. But it's not my idea or thought, it just comes kind of from nowhere. But I have to provide the stimulus in the first place via my senses. I couldn't just sit at a jigsaw and think it done.
At the moment I'm working on this. I have already been aware for some time how thinking creates stories and how I can easily get attached to them, but I am going to look at this more closely. I think stories and my attachment to them is one of my major stumbling blocks. I can easily get wound up about something that happened years ago, or about something that hasn't happened yet - or may never happen. I'd love to be able to stand back and watch this process roll out whilst remaining completely unattached to it. But again and again I find myself drawn in to these stories. When I catch myself doing this it stops, only to restart again soon afterward.Take say 5 minutes and just observe the thinking that happens. Notice how much of it is based on the past. Notice how much is based on the future. Notice how much of it is based on the NOW. See how many are based on habit – e.g. usual thoughts, or usual responses to situations etc.
See how many thoughts link with the previous thought. See if thoughts are linked to a particular sensation or feeling. See how thoughts exaggerate and build the story, explaining and expanding as they go. Is there identification with stories and thoughts in general?
At the moment we're very busy preparing for a two week holiday and I'm trying to tie things up at work too. So sorry if I don't post something everyday, at the moment it's not that easy. I will be on holiday for two weeks starting on Monday, but I'll try to post if I can although it will be from my phone when I manage to get a wifi signal and I can't guarantee how regularly this will be. So please don't give up on me I'm still here :-) .
I'd love to be able to stand back and watch this process roll out whilst remaining completely unattached to it. But again and again I find myself drawn in to these stories. When I catch myself doing this it stops, only to restart again soon afterward.
I'll try to figure out exactly what I'm afraid of too. It's hard to pin down exactly but it's mostly to do with how things may change for me if I complete this process successfully.
No beard here! But I do like berries!!!!!I don't want to end up living in a cave with a long beard and eating wild berries !! (joke)
Now you say this, Yes, I can see that it doesn't really matter when the seeing occurs, only that seeing has occurred. When you sayBut you do see it! Doesn’t matter when – only to thought would it matter – do you see this? If so :)
I think you mean (correct me if I'm wrong) that it's only when I'm identified with the thought that "I haven't really seen something in time, therefore it doesn't really count as seeing" - that thought has power over me, and takes me away from what's really happening yet again. Is this true? It feels like thought will do anything to hide what is really occurring here.only to thought would it matter
Yes!!!!! Do you see this? Look. Ask yourself - what is wrong with right now out of thought? Now that doesn’t mean that thought is ‘bad’. But we need to look at the power of thought – what is it that thought can actually do. Can thought actually think? Can thought do anything – e.g. walk you around? Can thought control anything? Now we will take these slowly! One by one! So don’t worry about them just yet! Deal with the outstanding questions first OK.Now you say this, Yes, I can see that it doesn't really matter when the seeing occurs, only that seeing has occurred. When you say only to thought would it matter I think you mean (correct me if I'm wrong) that it's only when I'm identified with the thought that "I haven't really seen something in time, therefore it doesn't really count as seeing" - that thought has power over me, and takes me away from what's really happening yet again. Is this true? It feels like thought will do anything to hide what is really occurring here.
WOW! :) What wants happiness Rich – is it thought? What wants more than ‘this’ now – is it thought? Can you catch thought saying either – can you catch thought wanting more than this minute? Out of thought – what is wrong with right now?I looked at this for a few minutes and I was struck with the realisation that happiness is not a "thing" to get to. It's not a destination! instead it seems that happiness is almost the exclusion of the need to pursue happiness. I feels to me that happiness is sort of a carrot on the end of a stick - the constant striving for something more than there is at the moment. That could equally mean material possessions, or a professional or social situation, or a state of mind . And then it kind of struck me that happiness is the cessation of the quest for happiness. In other words the more you pursue it the father away it gets, which sounds counter intuitive when you consider the traditional ways of seeking happiness. So I have concluded that happiness is here every moment, and that you just have to see that and reach out and take it, to get it. In other words, you need to stop reaching for the carrot !!
Thought creates stories by building on initial thoughts that are usually the result of input from senses eg an overheard conversation, or witnessing a scene. The initial thought may have some basis in truth but the story usually is wildly off target. Thoughts stick to each other creating these stories like snowflakes binding together. Habitual thoughts are thoughts that always create the same thought chain. For example when someone fails to indicate at a roundabout, I always go through the same commentary and the same annoying emotion.Take say 5 minutes and just observe the thinking that happens. Notice how much of it is based on the past. Notice how much is based on the future. Notice how much of it is based on the NOW. See how many are based on habit – e.g. usual thoughts, or usual responses to situations etc
Thought has no power other than the power of distraction. Distraction from what I really want which is to be free of wanting. It's the wanting that's really the problem. Wanting more than there is now or at least something other than what is. Wanting to be somewhere else, doing something else, being with someone else or no one else. Thought creates this tension between what could be and what is. That's its power. It doesn't actually control anything but it suggests things and that tension results in a physical response sometimes.Is there identification with stories and thoughts in general?
Yes I get dragged into this all the time. Continuing with the above example about failing to indicate at a roundabout, this is my "pet hate", which says it all really when talking about habitual responses.
But I do tend to identify with this. It's as if "me" and my habitual response creates an identity that says "This is me! I am a person who always indicates at a roundabout. Therefore I'm better than you. This is what makes me different to you"
In creating this identification it immediately separates me from all else that is going on.
This is still a tricky one. and I know some of these answers are wrong but here goes anyway ...Does thought have power? If so what? Can thought do anything? Can thought think?
Can thought think ?
No I don't believe it can. It's kind of like some shrink that you see in the movies holding up ink blots and saying "tell me what you see". It's just a picture or a suggestion of a picture that sets off a chain reaction or story or interlinking thought. It's just the first domino that topples the rest.
Thinking about thought is difficult because there is no way to think of it that's not biased by it. I can never think about the nature of thought without the act of thinking influencing the outcome. There must be another way to see it ??
Then look at the power of thought – I think I write a lot on this last time????? What does thought control? What power does it have?
Most of my fears are based on a future projection
OK – now looking at these two statements – if thoughts have no power – what is there to fear?Thought has no power other than the power of distraction.
OK – look again. What or where is this ‘me’ you are referring to? Without the thought ‘I want’ – is there a problem? Without the story that thoughts attach to ‘want’ – is there a problem? Take your time here – look.About thoughts and who or what wants happiness :-It's not thought that wants happiness. It's "me" that wants life without wanting.
What is distracted? Thought? You? If thought has no power - how does it distract?Thought has no power other than the power of distraction.
OK I've tried to find out where thoughts come from. I cant seem to get where they originate from except that I've noticed that when a thought arises, it quickly sets of a chain of thought. It's hard to get to the original thought that starts it all off. Even if I try to deliberately think of something specific, the thoughts start of quite abstract until a collection of past experiences sort of morph into what I have tried to conjure up. So the process seems to be not altogether in my control. For example, If I try to think of a car, I cannot just think "car" and , bang, it's there in my head. Instead It starts off with the word itself, then abstract images, then cars I once had or still have. It's a chain process - a referencing process that my brain does, and it all starts off with the association made between the word and the thought.Where do thoughts come from? Where do they go? Do you do either – bring them or get rid of them? So if neither – then who or what is affected by distraction? When you say ‘you’ what are you pointing at? What exactly are these thoughts or distractions referring to?
Good point!! You're right, my fears are based on thoughts about thoughts. If thoughts have no power, then being afraid of them is not rational.if thoughts have no power – what is there to fear?
I think the answer to this can be referred back to the last bit I wrote above. The bit about I being another thought. It feels logical to say that the "me" that wants stuff is just another thought. Its a thought invoking other thoughts to create a need for something other than there is now. Without the thought " I want" there is no problem. So I (the real I, not the thought I) needs to disassociate from the thought "I" in order to not be drawn into this chain reaction.What or where is this ‘me’ you are referring to? Without the thought ‘I want’ – is there a problem? Without the story that thoughts attach to ‘want’ – is there a problem?
So thought thinks? Or thoughts start other thoughts? Do you actually experience that – a thought thinking or a thought bringing about another thought? Or is it thought that say following thoughts are connected? And that really it is one single thought following another single thought?OK I've tried to find out where thoughts come from. I cant seem to get where they originate from except that I've noticed that when a thought arises, it quickly sets of a chain of thought.
What thoughts do you control? Give me an example.So the process seems to be not altogether in my control.
OK so now this is seen – look next time fear pops up – see the future thoughts trying to attach – notice what sensations there are present and how story thoughts try to attach to that too.Good point!! You're right, my fears are based on thoughts about thoughts. If thoughts have no power, then being afraid of them is not rational.
Lovely noticing! Now look for this! Verify it!I had another small breakthrough last night while "thinking" about this.....
I have read that "I" is just another thought. I don't see this yet but I will say that it's true on an intellectual level for the moment. So how can I prove that to be the case ? I reasoned that if "I" is just another thought then if I stopped thinking completely, which is possible for me if only for brief periods, then I would cease to exist !! I tried to be still and stop all thoughts for a few moments and discovered afterward that I still exist!! Therefore the "I" that is just a thought cannot be me. I (as in the entity that is me) must be something other than thought. So I need to look to see what this other I really is ...
It feels logical to say that the "me" that wants stuff is just another thought. Its a thought invoking other thoughts to create a need for something other than there is now. Without the thought " I want" there is no problem. So I (the real I, not the thought I) needs to disassociate from the thought "I" in order to not be drawn into this chain reaction.
Ok so you are suggesting that thoughts are not connected? I don't see this. What I see when a thought arises about a subject are lots of thoughts on the theme of that subject. If they weren't connected why aren't they just random. They don't appear to be random at least when I try to think of a specific object or subject.So thought thinks? Or thoughts start other thoughts? Do you actually experience that – a thought thinking or a thought bringing about another thought? Or is it thought that say following thoughts are connected? And that really it is one single thought following another single thought?
I didn't quite mean that I could control thoughts. I meant quite the opposite. When I try to think of something like an object, the process seems to be ; first the word (usually an image of the actual text), then images trying to match the word until a best fit solution is found. The process is not in my control. If you said to me "think of a white elephant", I wouldn't be able to instantly picture an elephant - perfect in every detail. It doesn't work like that, at least not in my head.What thoughts do you control? Give me an example.
What or where is this ‘me’ you are referring to? Without the thought ‘I want’ – is there a problem? Without the story that thoughts attach to ‘want’ – is there a problem?
I will get back to you on these two points. I like to take a bit more time to look at this if possible.Do you think the real I is actually affected by anything that appears or is experienced? Kind of like a mirror – is it affected by any of the reflections? Or the ocean by a single wave?
Can you control not being drawn into? Is that possible?
Ok so you are suggesting that thoughts are not connected? I don't see this.