Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
When I look, all that I refer to as some kind of identity, I find is no more than thoughts. What makes me confused is, from the place where I experience, through the senses for example, this body is different from yours. We don't experience the same things. This seems still separate. Does this makes sense? Like there is both no separate self, and still separate experiences.
Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
Ok. As I see it. When I identify with this being (me, my body) and it's needs. Which in a way is separate from other beings (different body, different experiences) This identification creates the sense or thought that there is a "me" somewhere. When I look at it at another level, as the source of everything is same, there I find no separation. I could say, in my experience right now, both is true at the same time, separation and non separation.
How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
Difference is, it's quite clear that the sense of I, as an identity, is thoughts. When I look at this, it creates a feeling of openness. Sometimes when I read the questions and think about them, because I find nothing, comes this sense of openness.
Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life? Do you make anything happen? Give examples from your experience.
I can see decisions happening, the thoughts of "self/I" seems to affect the decision-thoughts, intension-thoughts et.c. But I didn't create the "self" thought from the beginning, it just appeared, so did the decision-thoughts. A lot of times also decisions are made so fast, before I even thought about making a decision. Most of the time actually. There is so much happening all the time. Just like how my hand moves on the keys when writing this, it goes so fast, there is not much of these decisions "I" am really involved in.
