The Gate

The experience is as it is. However the me feels that it is experiencing it,

You are not „looking“ here in direct experience. If „me“ is just a thought, how can thought feel?
It can't. It is still just another thought: me is feeling…
Story is going on it its own. Just notice. There are sensations and there are thoughts about sensation.
Is there anything outside of the experience having it?
Is there inside and outside of the experience?

With Love.

Hey David,

when you make decision, who is making them? :)
How that happens?
And who is communicating with who now?

Be well.

David,

do you feel ready for the kind of final questions?
Do you feel a perceptual shift; that seeing happened?
Or there are still some doubts, feeling of not being "there", anything you would like to look at deeper now?

Love.

• Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
  
  What the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works?
  
  How does it feel to see this?
  
  What was the last bit that "pushed you over" and made you see through the illusion of self?

Hey David,

Whatever arises in experience, arises. Thoughts, sensations, also doubts. It is good to notice it and see does that happen to someone or it just arises in the experience.
Thoughts about self and some old conditioning usually stays after initial seeing. But constant, deep looking dissolves it.

Hear are the questions.

• Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
  
  No, there are thoughts and patterns taken to be a me, by that root thought pattern of a me.
  
  What the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works?
  
  It is a thought, it starts there or even before the thought is formed, then other thoughts form in relation to this original ignorance, creating a matrix of feelings, characteristics all viewed as something related to a me, a false individuation.
  
  How does it feel to see this?
  
  Liberating and re-orientating; then this false self attempts to introduce doubt, it appears to have a life of its own. There is restedness, simplicity, nothing unusual, the me isn't sure that it's got it, to that false me, this should be more of an experience, something to exalt the senses, or so it thinks.
  
  What was the last bit that "pushed you over" and made you see through the illusion of self?

I'm not sure I am over the edge, I still feel identified with thoughts and feelings, not able to distinguish this false identification with a me or an I as a constant seeing.

In life it has been occassioned by
extreme experiences, near accidents
devotion
guidance/ pointing by yourself and other teachers
love and doing what I love
riding motorbikes
running
pain
beauty & nature

The pointing by a teacher turning awareness back on itself, expanding within, caused the me to dissappear entirely for some days

This may not have been what you were asking.

Let me know what further detail I can give or where I am not being fully honest in your view.

Much Love.

I'm not sure I am over the edge, I still feel identified with thoughts and feelings, not able to distinguish this false identification with a me or an I as a constant seeing.

How this identification happens?

Isn't it also just a thought in awareness.

Is there still unconditional belief in thoughts?

It is just thoughts in awareness, however such thoughts/ resultant feelings are sometimes taken as reality when I am not conscious of this fact, i.e. I believe myself to be a me identity

It is just thoughts in awareness, however such thoughts/ resultant feelings are sometimes taken as reality when I am not conscious of this fact, i.e. I believe myself to be a me identity

Is that a problem?

By unconditional belief I mean accepting content of the thoughts to be true without questioning it.
Look deeper is there "you", an entity that identifies with thoughts and feelings? Or how it happens?

Do you exist, David?

What says your direct experience, what is world, what is separate right now?

:)