Gateless Gatecrasher

[Ranj]

Okay, this shits getting cool :D

Didn't have much time alone, however the short bursts I did have were interesting.

The separation between 'whatever I am is' and the body is increasing the more the 'looking' takes place. There was a moment of (don't know how true this statement is) "the universe IS because 'I AM". And, what 'I AM' seems to be absolutely NOTHING! There was a moment, whilst sitting on the loo (too much detail, sorry) that it felt that the tap and I were ONE (as my attention was focused on it), and it was clear that the body was no different from the tap, as in 'something separate' from NOTHING, i.e. the real so called me.

Tis 'presence' (the only word by which I can describe it) is more evident towards the evening/night times, at not so much in the day - it's like all the busy minds wondering around during the day seems to effect my mind in some way, making it more of an obstacle.

I await further instructions, Lisa.

Thank u! :) x

[Anki]

There is nothing separate from you, indeed. Let's get this focused on the foundational illusion of a seperate self, and then it'll all click easily into place.

Imagine santa claus. As a child you thought him a real flesh and blood person in a red suit. Then you learned it was just a story about a not-real man in a fantasy red suit. No more santa 'real' in your thoughts, right? Always forever more you were positive it was just a story about a pretend man in a red suit.

If I ask you to look around in your room for a unicorn, you would immediately say 'No unicorn here'. You would have no doubts. Look inside, you see there is no 'I'. Look again. Is there an 'I' in there anywhere to be found? ''

[Ranj]

Is it correct I am free from ALL: Guilt, Regret, Worry? Is it true that I am Untouchable?

[Ranj]

Are we just visitors here?

[Ranj]

You and I are the SAME?

[Ranj]

The Santa thing had no impact. However, if I'm to accept that there is an 'I'/ME/Self in this room, I also HAVE TO accept that there is a unicorn in the from also.

Will post again tonight.

[Ranj]

*room

[Anki]

The Santa thing had no impact. However, if I'm to accept that there is an 'I'/ME/Self in this room, I also HAVE TO accept that there is a unicorn in the from also.

Look at this Ranj. Dissolve both ideas, because that's all they are... IDEAS.

Santa, unicorn, Batman.... all made up in the mind, all stories that some take as 'real' until they know better.

I, me, self, you, they, them... all made up in the mind, all stories that some take as 'real' until they know better.

'Ranj' is a thought that says there is a someone who is a separate entity. That's all. It's a thought that began early in life, clumped together with a bunch of other, similar thoughts, belief given to them, and they were never again questioned.

Look. Is there a 'you' that exists as a thing?

[Ranj]

"Look. Is there a 'you' that exists as a thing?"

No. There isn't. I see it to a certain degree, problem is I don't know how deep thats penetrated. Certainly, during the course of this process layers of the onion have peeled off somewhat, I guess I'm waiting for that 'grounding' point, where it's totally evident that something has shifted, enough to be able to say - "I'm Home". if you know what I mean. Sorry :/

Help...?

[Ranj]

Also thing is...I'm at times reaching points of 'expansion' (sorry to use that word; only one I had to best describe it), but then I'm coming up against a Block, one of the things that come up is that I question it (as it feels so surreal). There is pretty much no activity in the mind at that point, and so it feels erm...lonely, and BIG, whereby everything in front of the eyes it would seem is starring straight back at me because of the clarity from which the seeing is happening.

Is this early stages of 'grounding'?

[Anki]

Not sure what you mean by 'grounding' in this context, Ranj. Let's get you 'grounded' in what will hold you steady.

Here's what to do: look at your keyboard, or monitor, the chair or table. Really look at one of them... table, say. Notice its color, size, the space it takes. It's hard, it doesn't give when you touch it. It's right there, and your senses are bringing it to you very clearly. Get with that. Really perceive with all you've got.

Anytime you feel unsteady, that there's 'expansion' that feels uncomfortable, switch to the 5 senses, and bring in what's around the body, let it be your experiencing until things feel steadier.

"Look. Is there a 'you' that exists as a thing?"
No. There isn't. I see it to a certain degree, problem is I don't know how deep thats penetrated.

Look some more. Remember to set aside expectation about what this is like. When you see that there is no self, just stay with it. You'll become steadier with it, not necessarily 'deeper'. It will become available in any moment for you to recognize yet again.

Let me know how this goes....

[Ranj]

Sorry I haven't had time today to sit and BE, as it's been one of those days. Will report back tomorrow, for sure.

Hope ur well :) x

[Anki]

I am... thank you! and take your time.

Focus, look, see.

[Ranj]

Hi Lisa

Thought it only right to pop in and say Hi. Again not had any time to myself today. Let's see what tomorrow brings.

Take care :)

Ranj

[Anki]

Thank you Ranj. I appreciate you letting me know.. :)

Again, just keep to the focus. Looking with focused attention is the most powerful tool we have. Hands down.

Lisa