The Gate

Hi Richard!

Thank you for not getting sick of my wobbeling around in this ☺

No I can’t find what isn’t clear but it’s probably about the expectation that this can be understood yes, ”felt” in every second. But it has become clear to me that what that means is that I want thoughts with I to stop appearing. What is that motivation really if not just more thoughts? But still there’s still a wish for a lasting peace…and yes resltessness in the sens that there’s an urge to live without the strains of illusion
But what that means…I don’t know, again thoughts with I to disappear, fear to disappear, some tension to disolve…?

There are strong sensations of tingeling but also pressure in the top and back of the head. I wake up with a head ache every morning and has for some time. Buzzing in the chest too. Many different feelings passing through…more or less thoughts around them.

Thoughts about love…this is fuzzy but it’s like there’s so much unreleased love or energy caged up and it’s so straining...

I’m sorry Richard I thought you’d be done with be when I sent you those answers. Are we really? Is this to be resolved with some time? The truth has been seen and it will never disappear cause it’s the truth. Thoughts with ”I” believed to be me, storifying, will still happen but the truth will always be there to be seen since it’s the truth. No ”I” will run this seeing, but the truth will remain, seen or not.

I very much appreciate you not letting me go!

Thank you for not getting sick of my wobbeling around in this ☺

Wobbling or exploring ?
I see you are looking into the questions i ask

No I can’t find what isn’t clear but it’s probably about the expectation that this can be understood yes, ”felt” in every second. But it has become clear to me that what that means is that I want thoughts with I to stop appearing. What is that motivation really if not just more thoughts? But still there’s still a wish for a lasting peace…and yes resltessness in the sens that there’s an urge to live without the strains of illusion
But what that means…I don’t know, again thoughts with I to disappear, fear to disappear, some tension to disolve…?

Our purpose here is the recognition that any separate, fixed self is illusory. We cannot stop it appearing. You are correct that Thoughts of "I" and other illusions cause pain. There are many different paths that lead on from here. A lot of it seems to be about accepting experience as it is and not trying to fix or control it.

There are strong sensations of tingeling but also pressure in the top and back of the head. I wake up with a head ache every morning and has for some time. Buzzing in the chest too. Many different feelings passing through…more or less thoughts around them.

Thoughts about love…this is fuzzy but it’s like there’s so much unreleased love or energy caged up and it’s so straining...

Just notice all of this and keep letting it all pass through like the weather

I’m sorry Richard I thought you’d be done with be when I sent you those answers. Are we really? Is this to be resolved with some time? The truth has been seen and it will never disappear cause it’s the truth. Thoughts with ”I” believed to be me, storifying, will still happen but the truth will always be there to be seen since it’s the truth. No ”I” will run this seeing, but the truth will remain, seen or not.

Do you feel settled in this seeing now ?

As settled as I can be in this exploring :)

Here's another that you might find relent - what do you make of it ?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XICI4M3A2L4

Sorry, relevant :-)

Hi! Yes I can relate to this jumpy mind and I think I need to explore this further now, don't you think?