Realisation please. Thank you

[Anastacia42]

Hi,

It takes zero time.

It happens in one relaxed instant.

Keep practicing & posting how it FEELS or LOOKS here.

You are already SEEING. That vivid color was SONG.

Loving,

[Anastacia42]

SEEING. not SONG. :)

[Adi]

It takes zero time.

I meant time for me to be "ripe" perhaps, but what do I know...

I started listening this morning to IAC recordings. I tend to practice with those again.

I was chopping a carrot today and used my senses for DE, it felt one dimensional . I was looking at the orange colour of it, and the sound of the bowl when I put it on the surface, stirred it all. And again when I was washing up. Pink of the gloves and then the sound of the water. Each is very concentrated , solid "stream"

Thank you.

Much love
Adi

[Adi]

Hi Stacy,
I have nothing new to write in terms of “change” of perception. I have occasional vivid moments, like today on the street when I walked to the train station. I had a brief moment of happening. Just happening is what I can say.

I practiced with the first session this morning, (IAC recording)
I’ll keep doing that and reporting.
Thanks as always
Much love
Adi

[Anastacia42]

Good, Adi!

I had a brief moment of happening. Just happening is what I can say.

These will probably lengthen & increase in frequency.

Loving,

[Anastacia42]

Good morning, Adi,

Here is Richard Lang sharing Headless Way. Watch it even if you've read HW before.

It is *excellent*. Enjoy!

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=sdwBPPfuo50

Loving,

[Adi]

Hi Stacy,

It is, actually. Thanks for sending.
I like how he puts it so literally. There is no way to miss if one looks like that. Till it's lost into realms of thoughts of course. I do wonder what makes it last longer, except for constant practice.

And he lives just near by, apparently, not that it matters, just nice to accidently hear the neighborhood name...

Thanks again
Much love
Adi

[Anastacia42]

Great.

He did invite visitors. I would see if there are any meetings.

Beware of looking for some experience to "last longer." That is NOT at all what this is about.

Sure, there's a honeymoon period, be it short or long. but you've seen & cannot forget that there's no self.

Loving,

[Adi]

Hi Stacy,

Yes, that is what I mean. Of course I would love to have the bliss as described by Byron Katie ( or like in "3 pillars of Zen" if you've read it) the Kensho experiences do make one feel envious, BUT I honestly gave up on those and don't search for that. I would simply like to not believe in a self ever again, once I have truly no doubt and have completely seen there is none, not just because it sounds extremely freeing but also because it simply knowing what is real and true and what isn't.
I am not sure how does that work, but probably better not knowing and continue blubbering about it and just do the work :)

So, as far as I have read in the crashers, once you've passed there is no going back. Right? Forever there will be no Adi for me. The thing with Self is all I can find is that it isn't there, but what is there, there? So all I can find is what is not, and not what IS.
Doubt seems to be the only tool there is and that is less intuitive for me, hence feel less reachable.
Well, I hope I didn't make an extensional soup here. Didn't mean to do your head in.
Thank you.

Much love
Adi

[Anastacia42]

Well, I have no idea what you're talking about.

Is there "Ad?" if so, point to her in Direct Experience.

Is there no "Adi?"

What will it take for you to stop doubting?

If it's obvious while doing Headless Way, weekday more could you possibly need?

This doubt isn't doing you any favors.

Loving,

[Anastacia42]

Weekday should be "what."

[Anastacia42]

Remember these? Seeing can come & go, but you know it happened.


https://youtu.be/vJQcD588g2w

and

https://youtu.be/PUDzrCLlrj4

Loving,

[Adi]

Is there "Ad?" if so, point to her in Direct Experience.

No. It's a belief that I still have.

Is there no "Adi?"

No, it's a belief, which I would like to abandon

What will it take for you to stop doubting?

A true, clear and complete realisation. I don't know how it'll be.

If it's obvious while doing Headless Way, weekday more could you possibly need?

I am not sure myself. I guess questioning beliefs and doing everything direct and without the mind.

This doubt isn't doing you any favors.

Doubt in the self is what I am doing when I am questioning/looking, as it slowly negates my belief in a self.

https://youtu.be/vJQcD588g2w

and

https://youtu.be/PUDzrCLlrj4

Thank you. It did answer my question regarding passing through the gate.

Much love
Adi

[Anastacia42]

Hi Adi,

I suppose, just keep on keeping on. Be sure you're relaxed and open to FINDING. Sometimes we get addicted to seeking.

I still think the group meetings could put a chink in your armor.

Loving,

[Anastacia42]

Hi Adi,

A belief is a thought. We are not here to believe anything. We're here to SEE with our eyes hear with our ears feel with our skin.

I'd like for you to reread your entire thread, beginning to end. Commit to ignoring mere beliefs which are made up thoughts & commit to SEEING.

Loving,