Step 5, doubt, and wanting to be done with this

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oof, sorry about not replying for so long, even though its always on my mind.

I read your reply earlier and spent some time noticing the aversion come up, which has definitely helped.

While the aversion to a dedicated practice session is still pretty strong for some reason, the spontaneous looking at experience have been happening more frequently which is very nice :)

one thing I noticed is that at the end of the day there might be some thoughts or feelings about failing or having aversion all day long, but really the 'aversion' feeling only happens a couple times and my day is mostly just spent with attention on other things.

thank you pablo!