The Gate

Hi Mike,

Adapting behaviour won't be necessary. Is you Mike or is you aint? :)

/John

Hi John,

Is you Mike or is you aint? :)

Most definitely not! Haven't seen 'Mike' for a while now, and don't intend to,

Mike, (even feels wrong signing off as Mike)

Thank you. Would you say you are done with respect to our inquiry into 'self', that you see this clearly? Seeking comes out of a lack - is there any lack? If there does feel to be a lack, pierce into the question of whether 'lack' is a thing in itself, and could ever be the property of a fictional being.

Best wishes!
John

Hi John,

Thank you. Would you say you are done with respect to our inquiry into 'self', that you see this clearly? Seeking comes out of a lack - is there any lack? If there does feel to be a lack, pierce into the question of whether 'lack' is a thing in itself, and could ever be the property of a fictional being.

There is no 'lack' John, i no longer have a 'self concept' thanks to you and your pointing, i have seen straight through 'self'. I understood it as a concept when i came to you through this wonderful site, but now, since you have made me look in certain ways, i see it as it is, a fabrication!

I have to say that since our dialogue has started my practice has deepened considerably, discarding my false identity has made my 'awareness' much deeper, and although i don't have a word for it, i now have a deeper understanding of what (not who) i am, my path seems much clearer now.

If this is an end to our dialogue then thank you very much, i just wish you lived locally as i'm sure you have a lot more you could teach me :)

Thank you again John

Thank you - got a couple of questions from another guide for you:

What is the me he talks about?
To what did he look to see there isn't a Mike?

Best wishes,
John

Hi John,

What is the me he talks about?

I am awareness! This is only a word and could change depending on your belief system

To what did he look to see there isn't a Mike?

There was no looking, Mike doesn't show up anymore

Mike

Another answer,

What is the me he talks about?

There is no 'me' only emptiness

To what did he look to see there isn't a Mike?

There is nowhere to look

Mike

I am awareness! This is only a word and could change depending on your belief system

Whilst I know we are talking words here, but say that phrase: "I am awareness!" and look to see what the "I" points to.

Thanks!
John

Hi John,

Whilst I know we are talking words here, but say that phrase: "I am awareness!" and look to see what the "I" points to.

Only words! I see what it points to John, a self, but believe me it is only words,

There is no 'I' only 'Rigpa'

Mike

Hi Mike,

Apologies for delay - had a lot on.

How do you see seeking now?

How does that feel?

Has that shifted since we started our inquiry - could you share what has changed in that respect.

With kind thanks,
John

Hi John,

Apologies for delay - had a lot on.

No need for apologies!

How do you see seeking now?

I can remain in 'Rigpa' for longer and longer with each passing day. Many years ago, although i did meditate with my eyes shut then, i came to a point where there was a great 'release' at the back of my neck, a huge feeling of euphoria accompanied by tears washed over me, this resulted in an experience of total 'nothingness' i had no sensation of body, mind or time, only of a tiny point of energy somewhere in front of me (that sounds a bit silly, but true!) i couldn't hold this for very long but the experience blew me away!

Shortly after, life events changed, the wheel turned and i stopped my practice. I have been trying to get back there ever since, even though i didn't know what it was, or signified as i have always relied on books for tuition. I know that i am very close to this happening again, which explains my 'hunger'

How does that feel?

Very,very, very exciting!

Has that shifted since we started our inquiry - could you share what has changed in that respect.

A lot has changed since our dialogue started, since seeing through my 'self' i have realized the importance of trying to remain in Rigpa, everything else feels wrong, i now know i have spent my life worrying about empty thoughts and the effect they would have on an invented 'character' (Mike) Although it will take time, I can sometimes see problems for what they are, just empty thoughts! and when i do, the problem seems unimportant and easier to deal with.
It feels as if everything is coming together at the moment, the seeing through 'self' meditation and remaining present throughout the day all appear connected, or at least guiding me towards the same goal.

Hope some of that has made sense, expressing myself isn't a strong point of mine, but thank you John,

Mike

Hi Mike,

I've just sent you a private message - so click on your messages link (next to way it says User Control Panel)

:)

With kind thanks,
John