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Hi Ilona,
fear of separation, fear of beeing judged, fear of beeing weak, fear of people attacking me..all kind of fear of life I feel in the belly. Itś protecting me to live fully, to be in love with the life. It keeps me emprisoned in a narrow world of false ideas. I should instead be living in a vast world of love.

No owner of life, body,mind,feelings. Life just is.

Kind regards,
Gregor

[Ilona]

Ask the fear, literally, talk to it, does it need to protect you from living life fully, loving life, being open?
If it says yes, find out, what is the worst that can happen, see if that is worse then living life in prison of fear and contraction.
Ask the fear if it wants to go, it may say yes.
If you like we can have a deep looking session together and I can help you to look what is in the way of freedom. Let me know. Here is an article of how it works. http://markedeternal.blogspot.co.uk/201 ... oking.html


Sending love.

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Hi Ilona,
I ask the fear what protects me from and it said it protects me from life. I ask why it needs to protect me and it said because life is dangerous, people are violent... and it doesnt want to go. Maybe I must change my belifes first?

Kind regards,
Gregor

[Ilona]

Can you have a look closely, if me is separated from life or it is part of life life-ing? Is life happening to you or as you? Does life need to be protected from itself?
What is that needs to be protected from life precisely?
What would happen if there was no protection anymore?

Sit with these questions for a bit and write when ready.

Sending love

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Hi Ilona,
seems like "I" needs to be protected from life, because without protection "I" will die. This "I" needs protection from criminals, aggresive people...and is separated from life and seems that life is happening to me.

Kind regards,
Gregor

[Ilona]

Sounds very serious. Are there criminals around you that are threatening you?

You say, that it seems that life is happening to you. SEEMS is the keyword here. I invite you to look if it's true. How does life happen To you? Are you receiver of life or life is happening as you?

Compare with all around- is life happening to a cloud, to a tree, to a bird or as a cloud, tree, bird, etc.. Focus on sensations that are felt right now. Is there I behind these sensations feeling them? And what would it feel like of there wasn't no I? Is distant sound happening to this I? Or it's just a sound arising and passing?

I'm not here to convince you of how life happens, it is up to you to look for yourself.
Is it possible that there is this I separated from life, even if it Seems So?
What would you be without this belief?
What would be different?

Explore here for a bit.

Sending love.

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Hi Ilona,
I have strange belief pattern that world is a dangerous place (early in childhood we decide whether this place-Earth is a safe place to be or a dangerous place) and as a result I´m very frightened person. When I´m in this mood of fear I can only sense that life is happening to me. This I is separated from life, fearfull, just waiting for people to attack him, always in defending mode. Without this belief Gregor would be less fearfull.

Only when I´m in peace and love I can sense that life is happening as me.Life is happening as a cloud, tree, bird, etc.. Sound is arising and passing.

Kind regards,
Gregor

[Ilona]

I have a good look, when fearful thoughts arise, is it when thinking about past, present or future?

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Hi Ilona,
fearful thoughts arise when thinking about past and future.

Kind regards,
Gregor

[Ilona]

yes, fearful thoughts arise when thinking ABOUT past or future, now, there is no fear. have a look through the day several times, what is behind the fear? what is this fear of living is REALLY about?
it's ok to feel what you feel. feeling of fear is covering some other feeling, protecting from them being felt. it's ok to feel any feelings. when not named, it's a sensation, energy passing through.

make friends with fear. as silly as it may sound, thank it for protecting. it's only trying to help.

tell me, what is behind the fear?


sending love.

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Hi Ilona,
itś terrible to feel fear. Like I´m loosing my energy. Behind fear of life is more fear (of other people attacking me, fear of black magic,of getting stuck in the black energy, of vasting my life, of getting lost in the darkness...)

Kind regards,
Gregor

[Ilona]

Looks like there is fear of fear itself?
What can happen if you feel fear?
Is it ok to feel fear?

You got to face it. The way out is through. When you watch the mechanism, what happens? Where in the body is it felt? Just feel the sensation, without naming it anything. It is ok to feel as you feel. Can you see, that when accepted, it passes?

I'd recommend we have a deep looking session.
When is a good time for you? You will need an hour or more of undisturbed time.

Sending love.

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Hi Ilona,
when fear comes I´m not connected to God. If feels like I´m alone fighting the whole world. Me against all other. Squezing in my belly. I don´t want to feel fear because after that I´m exhausted and without energy.
Deep down there is a fear I´m not gonna make it. I´m not good enough and I don´t deserve love.
Do not feel that it passes. Maybe it doesn´t work for me? I will try with Theta Healing.

I have time on Thursday 27th Februar after 18:00.

Kind regards,
Gregor

[Ilona]

The love that you are craving for is your own love to yourself. It's not found somewhere outside. It's in your heart. Not in some imagined god out there.
Do you deserve your own love?

Thursday is good for me. We can chat over Facebook or google hangouts.

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Hi Ilona,
I don´t deserve to be loved. I´ve been bad in past life. I must pay out my bad karma.

Kind regards,
Gregor