Hi... Miranda is ready :)

[Miranda]

Hullo lovely.
Another little exercise: close your eyes and search for the boundary of "me". Where do you end and where does the world begin? Can you find the limits of your body? Are the sounds inside or outside? Are the thoughts inside or outside? Tell me what you see.
This IS an interesting exercise. I live with other people, so cannot set up the environment as 'I' would necessarily like it. All becomes me, whether I like it or not. I will be back ... :) Thanks for hanging in here with me

[Canfora]

Hi, Miranda.

Thanks for hanging in here with me

It's a pleasure! Looking forward to listening about your experiences :)

[Miranda]

Hi Canfora,
Well, lovely things are happening. Great tracts of time ... extended moments of No Thought. More peace, less stories... very interesting indeed. Unaccustomed quiet :) No boundaries. Occasional sustained notes of music - very high. Audible silence. sigh :)

[Miranda]

that was supposed to read 'timeless time' ...

[Canfora]

Hi, Miranda.

Please try to answer the questions in my June 16th post.

I will repeat them, to help you remember:

Is there an "I" watching before the thoughts appear?

Can a thought make "you" safer? How?

Is there an inside and an outside in your DE?

If I say “There is no 'you' in any way shape or form, never was, and never will be.”, what thoughts, emotions, sensations arise?

Miranda, there are no good or bad answers and the questions are just a way of helping you to look :)

Love, Canfora

[Miranda]

Hi Canfora.... how strange ... my last post isn't here.... Great experiences ... experiencing Direct Experience :D! This perfect silence - it is an audible silence :) I was up at daybreak today, to put out some biodynamic preparation 501, which is in essence, liquid light. I feel as high as a kite! Only without a tether! Life just seems to keep getting better. Thank you, dear friend XXX

[Miranda]

I just scrolled back and saw I'd missed one of your posts. Now to answer...
Canfora wrote:
Is there an "I" watching before the thoughts appear?
There's an Awareness that is bigger than the little 'I'...

Canfora wrote:
Can a thought make "you" safer? How?
Thoughts, like life rafts in a stormy sea, can create the illusion of safety. But ultimately, 'I' let go, and lo! I do not drown!

Canfora wrote:
Is there an inside and an outside in your DE?
Less and less so.... boundaries of every kind seem to be dissolving...

Canfora wrote:
If I say “There is no 'you' in any way shape or form, never was, and never will be.”, what thoughts, emotions, sensations arise?
Where once there was fear and resistance, now there are smiles :)
:) :D How freeing :) Thanks xxx

[Canfora]

Dear, Miranda, I loved reading your answers. You seem connected with your direct experience and enjoying what’s happening.

What has changed since the beginning of our talk? Have you seen through the illusion of a separate self? Do you have any doubt?

There's an Awareness that is bigger than the little 'I'...

Let's look at this.

"Awareness" and "I" are labels that we use to point to something.

When you say "There's an Awareness that is bigger than the little 'I'...", are you saying that you are awareness? Is awareness in any way personal? Can there be awareness without an I to be aware?

Love, Canfora

[Miranda]

"Awareness" and "I" are labels that we use to point to something.

When you say "There's an Awareness that is bigger than the little 'I'...", are you saying that you are awareness? Is awareness in any way personal? Can there be awareness without an I to be aware?

Hi Canfora,
Thanks for getting back to me. I'm enjoying your questions, too! It is true that it gets harder and harder to describe one's experiences of oneness. I'm just going to use 'I' and 'me' cos I know you know what I mean!

I have been feeling awareness as a frequency, that is NOT personal, that in fact weaves through ALL matter, including me, for the time I am matter. Matter itself ebbs and flows.

I have been enjoying watching people without judgement ... what Eckhart Tolle calls "innocent observation" - Sometimes I just find myself chuckling.

Yesterday I had to spend some time alone to observe some interesting contraction that was going on - I have been feeling so .... expansive .... so I guess it's just another breathing pattern. The within and withoutness. Or do you reach a point where even this is transcended. Do you know what I mean?
At a loss for words,
Miranda

[Canfora]

one's experiences of oneness

Talk to me about this!

Is there an I experiencing? What is this I? Where is it?

See and tell me... I really want to know.

Love, Canfora

[Miranda]

Hullo lovely Canfora!

Here is one experience I will try to pin down with words ....

I had a very sore right side of chest - torn cartilage .... I was lying in bed, going into the pain, consciously trying not to run away from it, but shine the light of awareness on it ... my partner said something that triggered a lot of emotional pain, that landed like an arrow in the left side of my chest... I didn't react at all, just went into silent awareness of the pain, which was now like a huge band across the heart chakra region.... more and more awareness on the pain suddenly made it .... yield .... and transform .... and suddenly 'I' was no more.... where once 'I' was, there was now a 3D geometric pattern of light .... this experience was one of being this light structure, light that melted any skin boundary. This lasted until I fell asleep - don't know how long.

Since this experience I seem to have developed a greater sense of humour. I don't know if I've arrived anywhere different, but I do seem less inclined to react to emotional triggers. I flow in peace more. Flow is actually a good descriptor ...
Mainly I feel grateful. Grateful for these lovely experience, grateful to you, grateful for being alive ... it's All Good XXX

[Canfora]

Hello Miranda :)

It's good to read about your experiences. Thank you for sharing them.

Can we talk a little bit about what you want to achieve with being here? Liberation Unleashed is about seeing through the illusion of self, that there is no separate entity behind the word ‘me’.

Is this what you want?

Are you afraid?

Love, Canfora

[Miranda]

Hi Canfora... yes, I am afraid .... I have so much 'knowledge' about enlightenment, and experience glimpses of oneness ... yet here i am, still, editing myself so i sound like i know what you mean by oneness! Ha! Everything I've shared with you is true ... lots of lovely still quiet peace etc ... with the odd stunning experience described ... and yet, and yet.
Yes, I DO want to see through the illusion of self. Sometimes I genuinely do see through it. Right now? i am witnessing feelings of frustration and impatience... i feel very confused by all the different spiritual talk that gets around ... I am following your advice and not reading any other teachings while going through this process. Words creating reality ... being so careful with words and thoughts ... but it really doesn't matter what i say or do or think if there is no 'I' in charge anyway....? sigh ...
I will try to get here more often. Challenging relationship, very demanding of time and energy.
Much loving confusion,
Miranda

[Canfora]

Dear Miranda, thank you for your sincerity. I was feeling that you were out of my reach. This is a process and you are going fine: see, you are still here, talking to me, open to seeing. You’re very courageous.

Let’s go very slowly from here. Just answer my questions and be honest, like you did in your last post.

You seem to be very connected with your experience. You can use that to help you seeing; you just need to focus a little bit in what I’m pointing to.

Look at the fear. Open to it if you can.
What is this fear made of, were is it in your body? What does it say to you?

Be with it and really look. What is this fear protecting?

Also try to find what’s beyond the fear. Look and tell me, what is there?

Looking forward for your answer and sending love, Canfora

[Miranda]

Hi Canfora... been feeling very ... flat.Been trying to look at, in, behind, beyond the fear... it seems to have gathered in my shoulders, and I am becoming quite bowed by it ... very hard protective shell forming. I am trying to see what it is protecting ... just this feeling of being unsafe. Oh dear. Stuck in fear, I fear! XXX