I am so much more

[Anastacia42]

Okay.

How is your dog?

Loving,

[maya8383]

She's doing much better. The wound has finally healed, and she's no longer in pain, so we're all getting a good night's sleep again. Thank you for asking :) Nothing else really mattered to me over the past two weeks except for her to get better.

[Anastacia42]

Good! Of course. I'd be the same with my cat

Loving,

[maya8383]

Pure love shining through them!

[maya8383]

Confronting a big fear tomorrow, I feel it in my stomach contracting, There's a lot of selfing involved 'I made that decision/I am fearful/I am not sure if I'll be able to do it'. I see they are just thoughts, but the fear is real, contraction is here, there is excitement too but fear is in the foreground. Yeah. Any pointers on fear that you suggest?

[Anastacia42]

Yes.

There is a Direct Looking process for fear.

https://youtu.be/jKX1llYtlKE?si=jHXuuyyVtp7c-1R2

And this one:

https://youtu.be/fSTT8nc8cvQ?si=Alcukpbi7SUlXpfi

Loving

[maya8383]

Thank you. It really always comes comes down to paying attention to what's in my direct experience. I am safe in every moment, just have to pay attention. That second video on safety is spot on.

[Anastacia42]

Good!

[maya8383]

Hi Stacy, I haven't replied in a while. I guess there's not much to say. Mind is saying there's no progress and there's a feeling of stuckness. I've been doing the butt-chair exercise, and honestly, it's not going so easily. It seems just like meditation, which is okay, I guess, but mind is loud, convincing me that it's just meditation and isn't getting me anywhere.

Anyway, I'm having a hard time relaxing and not buying into thoughts.

[Anastacia42]

It is a meditation that shows you that you are one with everything which opens you to seeing that there is no self, but you can try these.

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/ksba3zhi9uuz ... hsk1a?dl=0

Loving,

[maya8383]

Thanks for this! I'll look at those.

[Anastacia42]

People often think a different pointer will make a difference, as if there are some magic instructions that will work. There are not.

That's why I keep instructing you to LOOK. This means LOOK with your eyes.

It is not difficult. It is not mysterious. In actual fact there is NOTHING THERE.

The *idea* of "self" is a lie feeling of contraction plus the lie thought of a "self." That's it.

There is what we call, "awareness," but only because we want to call it something. Some people call it "consciousness, " but that word gets used a lot. I live in a place where even a brand of coffee is called "Conscious Coffee" So I prefer "awareness. "

Awareness is not a "self."

This will make no sense at all to you until you drop all thinking and actually see it. Until then It is all concepts.

"Enlightenment is an accident. Meditation makes us accident prone."

Sunryu Suzuki

We cannot predict it and we cannot make it happen. We can only practice the conditions in which it is more likely.

This frustrates the mind because it wants everything to be linear and logical and step-by-step, but this is not. It is non linear and unpredictable.

The quicker you drop the expectation of linear predictability, the quicker you create the conditions for seeing no self.

https://youtu.be/wyNwhK2Ur1c?si=TZwuFEst-7Hsadpu

Much love