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[Emac1122]

WHO explains these feelings to WHO? Is there an observer separate from what is being observed/felt/experienced?

It feels personal, but when I look I can see there is no one or being explaining the feelings they arise just like the thoughts about the experience.

Is the above anything other than thoughts appearing in space and disappearing again? Is it owned?

It is nothing other than thoughts and feelings appearing. It feels like it is owned, but there is no entity who is the owner, just the feelings and thoughts that also constrict my view.

[graceabounds]

but there is no entity who is the owner, just the feelings and thoughts that also constrict my view.

What is this ‘view’?

Are ‘you’ at the center of feelings and thoughts arising?

[Emac1122]

The view is my perception. I feel like when I'm angry or upset my perception shrinks and I just feel lost in the emotions. I think that my sense of awareness is important because it allows me to have a pause before I react or a pause that allows space for the emotions to be without my trying to manipulate them in some way.

I am not the center of thoughts or feelings. I feel that sense of self when someone pushes my buttons. LOL. But, I continue to try to ask the question, "Who" is angry etc. When I ask that question sometimes, I see there is no "I' just feelings and thoughts.

[graceabounds]

Is there an owner of perception? Take a look.

When I ask that question sometimes, I see there is no "I' just feelings and thoughts.

Exactly, so is there a someone who comes and goes and can get lost?

I think that my sense of awareness is important

Is this sense of awareness:
a) direct experience
or
b) a thought?

Can direct experience be 'important'?

I feel that sense of self when someone pushes my buttons.

Can you find the separate entity that you feel has been attacked, apart from the and sensations, thoughts? Or is the sense of self always tied to a thought?

Are there 'others' who could be responsible for choosing to push your buttons? :)

[Emac1122]

Is there an owner of perception? Take a look.

No, no owner of perception. But it does appear to change.

Exactly, so is there a someone who comes and goes and can get lost?

No, though I sometimes feel like I am lost. I understand that it is impossible, but my experience does not always align with that understanding. It's interesting to realize that even if I think I'm not aware that that awareness does not change or move or stop.

Is this sense of awareness:
a) direct experience
or
b) a thought?
My sense of awareness is direct experience, but there is also an "idea" of awareness that seems to be a thought. When I look at awareness I can see it. It is a direct experience. I can turn my awareness to itself and see it.

Can direct experience be 'important'?

I’ve been thinking about this question. Direct experience isn’t something that can be important. It is something that just is. Just experience. What seems important to me is the awareness of direct experience, but when I look at that, I can’t find an instance where truly I’m not aware. I can’t find a difference between awareness and direct experience. Maybe direct experience is something that is me and awareness is the ability to observe it?

Can you find the separate entity that you feel has been attacked, apart from the and sensations, thoughts? Or is the sense of self always tied to a thought?

No, I can't find a separate entity apart from the sensations and thoughts. I just feel the anger, which makes my body constrict, and my thoughts start explaining or defending. There is a thought that there is someone that I am defending - that needs defending and a feeling of self-righteousness sometimes that I'm right and they are wrong, but when I look there is no entity there. there seems to be a lot of emotions around "being wrong or rather being right."

Are there 'others' who could be responsible for choosing to push your buttons? :)

No, others are not responsible for my reactions. I strongly believe we can only control our own selves, not others. Someone may say something I don't like, but how I respond is the important thing. I may not be able to control my emotions, but I can control how I respond even if I feel upset or angry. At least that's what I aim to do by taking a breath and trying to be more aware of what is going on internally. I am not always successful and sometimes just react, which is rarely wise.