10,000Things

[DurangoK]

Dear Rali,

Thank you for reading my answers and your detailed response. I am looking forward to looking again with fresh eyes. I have houseguests here for a few more days so I won’t be answering right away.

Much love
K

[poppyseed]

Hi Kristine

That's fine, no problem! When you do please write all answers together not just the "problematic" ones

Enjoy the company!

Love
Rali

[DurangoK]

Dear Rali,

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No, I don’t see a separate self at all, anywhere. I don’t see one in the past either (which would be thought anyway).

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

The illusion of separate self is the thought that there is something graspable or pointable to or describable that is a ‘me’ separate from a ‘you’. I don't see one. It never existed. Any apparent separate self is only a thought.

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

Clear. Simple. Comfortable.

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

Redoing these questions.
And just now wondering why I have been so out of it and attributing it to the post surgery hormone fluctuations. And realizing that’s a thought. And that the hot flashes are awful. But that’s a value judgement thought. The sensation is just a pure feeling and nothing more.

5) a) Describe decision & give examples from experience.

Decision is the label of an action that thought falsely reports that it takes. Choice is a similar false label.

I got up and grabbed a cookie just now. Thought displays cookie image and then body went and got one. But I don’t see any actual decision or choice, only what happened. And that it happened is only a thought. There's only this now.

b) Describe intention & give examples from experience.

Intention is a thought-plan for the future but there’s only this, no future aside from that imagined.

c) Describe free will & give examples from experience.

Free will insinuates there is an ‘I’ that can take action as desired. Looking directly I see there is no I and things just arise in the senses. There is no ‘why’ or ‘I’. I don’t see free will.

d) Describe control & give examples from experience.

Control would be the ability to make things happen if that ability existed.

e) What makes things happen? How does it work?

Looking now there is the seen colors and shapes, rather flat, infringing on the body which is equally part of it. Sounds, existing with the seen. (Body) sensation, merging with the others. Thought intertwining with it all. Nothing is making it happen and there is nothing stopping it from happening. Happening just happens.

f) What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

I don’t see anything that I can say for sure I am responsible for. There is no I to be responsible for it anyway.

6) Anything to add?

I hope this is way more real than last time! It feels more clean.

Much Love,
K

[poppyseed]

Hi Kristine

Wonderful!
I will pass your answers to the other guides to check if we've missed anything so please stay close for possible questions

Love
Rali