Wanting to wakeup feels like its what's stopping awakening

[mayafreedom]

Ok I think you're right that some shift(s) have already happened, it may have been something more recent actually just in December.

I just had a session with Christina Guimond (I had booked it before I started the work here on the Gate).

Before I wax poetic can you send me the confirmation questions? And I will be as absolutely honest as I can with them.

[Anastacia42]

Checkpoint Questions



1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

5) Describe decision & give examples from experience.

Describe intention & give examples from experience.

Describe free will & give examples from experience.

Describe choice & give examples from experience.

Describe control & give examples from experience.

What makes things happen? How does it work?

What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

6) Anything to add?

Loving

[mayafreedom]

I watched the 2nd video on the 2nd fetter (doubt) and found that to be exactly what I've learned--thinking you can solve the doubt and trying to solve it by thinking doesn't work. Letting it pass and feeling any feeling helps.

Thanks for sending these evaluation questions; I started writing my answers but I'm going to sit on it for a day.

Speaking of sitting, when I look for a boundary between my body and the chair, I cannot find one. I feel only pressure, tingly, openness.

I practiced with looking for the boundary of consciousness while sitting outside. At first it seems like there is one, like the spaciousness has a form, but once looking for the boundary of that form, one cannot be found. I also noticed that as sounds appeared to be further and further in the distance, consciousness immediately appeared to be that big/far out, too.