No-self

[Anastacia42]

Yes. Sensations.

All you reported were thoughts. LOOK again & FEEL.

Loving,

[Chrisisit]

Hi Stacy,

Doing the exercise again, I feel an emptiness when I look for a thing that is deciding to turn the hand. I’m not quite sure what it’s usually filled with. I suppose the absence of a self is always there, I just don’t notice it. Just thought I’d share that.

Thanks
Chris

[Chrisisit]

Sorry, sensations. I feel tingling in my lower legs and in my upper back. It’s like the sensations I get when I get goosebumps.

Chris

[Anastacia42]

Better.

Keep practicing.

LOOK, FEEL, ignore descriptions & thinking.

Loving,

[Chrisisit]

I still get the tingling. It’s fear. It’s scary that it’s happening on its own without me controlling it.

Chris

[Anastacia42]

It’s scary that it’s happening on its own without me controlling it.

It has always been this way - no self ever existed.

Try these:

There is a Direct Looking process for fear.

https://youtu.be/jKX1llYtlKE?si=jHXuuyyVtp7c-1R2

And this one:

https://youtu.be/fSTT8nc8cvQ?si=Alcukpbi7SUlXpfi

Lovng

[Chrisisit]

Hi Stacy,

The meditation is very helpful. I’m not quite sure what the fear is trying to protect me from yet (at least not experientially) other than ’the truth’- but I’m not sure what that is yet. but I realised that I have to accept the fear, make friends with it, let it be. I found this meditation ao helpful that I’m going to try to do it everyday :) hopefully later today as well.

Chris

[Anastacia42]

That sounds good. Keep me posted.

Loving,

[Chrisisit]

Hi Stacy, I’ve done the mediation 4 times now and I’m still not sure but the fear seems to be telling to stop, that I don’t want what it’s hiding. I think it’s protecting me from silence. It wants noise, it wants to be buried and hidden.

Chris

[Anastacia42]

That's interesting. I can't imagine not wanting this. But then again that's only fear talking.

[Chrisisit]

But I do want it, it’s why I’m here.

[Chrisisit]

Hi Stacy,

What should I do next?

Thanks
Chris

[Anastacia42]

If you're good with the fear, let's love on to this:

This is the only pointer Ilona gave me when I was guided here. i practiced this for about 3 months. I call it:

ButtChair

Please LOOK for any place where your butt ends & the chair begins.

Is there any clear dividing line between them? Or only the Sensation with no clear division?


It is simple direct & nonverbal. Just LOOK.

Then write what is true.

You could be doing this for days, weeks or even months, as I did.

Loving,

[Chrisisit]

Hi Stacy

Please LOOK for any place where your butt ends & the chair begins.

Is there any clear dividing line between them? Or only the Sensation with no clear division?

There is a lump of sensations around my general bum area. There pressure is stronger in some areas than others. The sensation IS the dividing line where my bum ends and the mattress begins. Although I have a hunch that this is the wrong answer.

Thanks
Chris

[Anastacia42]

Is there one Sensation or two?

Feel into it.

Loving