Impossible. There's no such thing. The *thought* story may be there, but nothing is there
I know, but I don't FEEL or SEE it.
Does the sense of self have a location?
Don't know if it is the sense of self itself or the feeling I have when I notice that I feel like a separate self. Maybe it does not matter.
It's in the chest, until the beginning of the throat.
Does the sense of self have a shape or a size?
Not really. It feels like it is within the body. Oh, it changes, too. There was a brief notion that this feeling is above me.
Does the sense of self say or communicate anything?
I don't know. It can't communicate through direct experience. Should I consider contents of thoughts that come up?
If the answer is yes, how does the sense do this exactly?
I didn't consider thoughts this time.
Does the sense of self have any characteristics or attributes?
It's a bit heavy, a light pressure, similar to the feeling of sadness. Or it's like a cloud, or a resistance, an imaginary wall that is pressing against me.
What is the sense of self ‘made of’? An image? Sound? Taste? Smell? Sensation? Thought?
No image, no sound, no taste, no smell.
If anything, a sensation + a thought.
What is found?
When I look in direct experiences for the self and there are moments of very little or no thoughts. I feel peaceful, and light. But noticing that "I feel" is already interfering with the experience. I don't know, it's kind of that I expect that it would suddenly not feel like that anymore, that "I am feeling" something, that it would change to feelings, sensations etc. are happening. But instead, this illusion of "I" just sticks.
Stacy, I would like to mention, that I appreciate it very much and that I am very grateful that you have the patience to guide me. It must be frustrating, sometimes. Thank you!
