Hi Elad,
Apologies, I took a long while in getting back to you to see if things might change. I think that for the time being this is a bit lost to me. Firstly I think that I have a lot of stress and strain in my life at the moment that is clouding my judgment, but secondly I think that I have seen all there is for me to see, it's just that I don't have that belief that it makes anything feel any better. The belief that this is a wonderful enlightening thing just isn't there for me. For me it just is what it is. It's an inert thing.
Currently I don't feel like I can move any further forward with this but I just wanted to take the opportunity to thank you for all of your compassion, kindness and understanding.
Lucy
Dear Lucy, thank you for these words. What you say is absolutely possible. If it is okay with you I would like to present you with the final LU check-point questions and if you would be willing to answer them from where you are now. There is no timeline on this, so you can do it in the coming days, or a month or a year from now. It might provide a kind of closure to all the work we did together. And that said... I will continue to be here if in the future you want explore something related to this, or you want to reach to me for more psychotherapeutic work, which I believe, if done properly, might be what could give you more relief and joy in life (and stressful painful periods will still come and go). Much love from here.
The questions:
1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
2) Explain as you see it what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before we started this dialogue?
4) What was the last bit that pushed you over; made you look? Was there a moment of shift with a distinct before and after?
5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. Consider and describe each if these separately.
6) What makes things happen? How does it work?
7) What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.
8) Anything to add?