Good morning
I can't find a separate self when I look.
Sure something which does not exist cannot be found.
There isn't the realization that there never was, but I don't believe there ever was.
It is not about a belief, it is about 100 % certainty.
1) There is honesty in your answers but they are not elaborated as I invited you to do.
2) You are not 100 % certain in your answers ( you often use "it seems").
The process of going through the illusion of a separate self is based on the PRACTICE of LOOKING AT what is going on in direct experience (seeing, hearing, smelling, tasting, touching or sensations). it is a 24/7 practice. When I ask a question, it is necessary to LOOK AT what is pointing to, SEE the answer, BE certain of the truth of the answer before writing it here. I don't want to read "it seems" or "I believe" etc, ... You don't have to expect something to happen, it is a recognition.
Here are some questions : LOOK AT each of them, read it slowly, ponder on it and SEE the answer in direct experience.
• Is there a “you” that is having the experience, or is there just experience happening without a central "owner" of it?
• Strip away every mental and conceptual label (like "I", "me", "this", "that", etc.). What remains when all descriptions are gone?
• Can you find the "you" that is separate from the thoughts and feelings?
• What is happening right now, in this moment, without any interpretation or judgment?
• Is there anyone or anything truly in control of what happens in your life, or does life unfold without a central controller?
• Can you pinpoint where control comes from, or if it even exists?
• What happens to the "I" when you are fully absorbed in an activity (like playing music, dancing, or deeply focused work)?
• Are thoughts something you create consciously, or do they arise spontaneously and leave just as quickly? Where do they come from and where do they go once they’ve left?
• Is time something that is real and separate, or is it just a mental construct that appears in the mind? Can you directly experience life without the mental overlay of past and future?
Take all your time for this.
Nour