Seeking for too long to the point that my face is blue

[Sarah7]

Hey Shmear
Haven't finished with you yet!

So - just to Sum up can you answer these in as much detail as you feel is necessary. Theres no rush! :) and Im going to send you a private message.

Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience.
Describe it fully as you see it now.
How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.
What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?
Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life? Do you make anything happen? Give examples from your experience.
Anything to add?
Hugs Sarah xxx

[Shmear]

Vey nice lite feeling.
Spacious sense a lot of time throughout the day.
Something I didn't have much before.
The nicest thing you ever did for me, Sarah, in the dialogue was bringing me into my direct experience without any me thought in it ( or as little as possible).
Just the raw sense of it and instead of having thoughts Im having empty space instead.
Separate self is something that came from thinking and is not here and clearly never existed but I'm sure it will come back when I get upset or hurt.
the true test will come to see my reaction when that happens.
No urge to control so far, in fact I had a strong disagreement at work ang to my huge surprised I just accepted the opposing side very softly.
The question you asked : do senses sense if you're not paying attention to input.
This is wonderful. The best thing!!! Love it. The implications from this question are ineffable.


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[Sarah7]

Thanks Shmear
There maybe some further questions, so if you could please keep checking in I'll be back with you as soon as poss.
Hugs S xxx

[Sarah7]

Hey
Can you answer this please.

No urge to control so far

if the urge to control came up, what is it that could exert control?
Hugs S xx

[Shmear]

Controller has urge controlling situation but now I see that he never existed in the first place.
Just a bundle of thoughts.

My bubble of daydreaming which is a bundle of thoughts and imagined personal his


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[Shmear]

Thank you, Sarah for the wonderful guidance.
Question I have:
As I wake every morning I need to get back to my new mode which takes a little time to bring myself to the where I was last night. Almost like a reset button as I go to bed every night.
Is always like that ? Is it expected?


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[Sarah7]

Hi Shmear
Am sending you another pm!
Hugs Xxx