In a rented house in Brook Street

[Nina45]

Hi Hannah,

One of the guides would like to clear something up from question 5:
"'I' have to make efforts in certain ways, to open myself to flow and process really, but the notion that planning and mapping what will happen seems ludicrous. 'I' have never done that well and yet i always seem to have 'landed on my feet'".

These are the questions:

Q: Where exactly can the 'doer' be found that is 'opening to flow and process'?
Q: What is it exactly that is trusting "that what came would be right with a little bit of thought before"?
Q: What exactly is it that is 'thinking' thought?

Have fun with those!

Love

Nina
Xxx

[Hannapple]

Dear Nina,

Thank you for your kind words. I felt exactly the same about seeing you with your lovely family ; ) I do appreciate you seeing me as you have and for your constant and kind support through this journey. Thanks for letting me share and show the inner workings of this mind.. The journey hasn't ended I know, I still have questions to answer....

I'll try and articulate my responses......

Q: Where exactly can the 'doer' be found that is 'opening to flow and process'?
Q: What is it exactly that is trusting "that what came would be right with a little bit of thought before"?
Q: What exactly is it that is 'thinking' thought?

I can't find the doer that is opening to flow and process. I looked just now..... What I was trying to express was that there is a physical mass - a body- that exists in the world and participates, that others recognise as "Hannah". That being 'does' things like eat, walk, work, meditate, cry, shit and shout. Real things happen BUT there isn't a controller Hannah inside the being Hannah who orchestrates all the happenings. Happenings do happen though. Work is happening, travelling on the train is happening and it seems much more obvious to me know that the flow of those activities in my life happen anyway without a 'me' thinking it's in charge or a 'me' getting in the way.

There is no 'me' trusting that 'what came would be right with a little bit of thought before". What i was trying to express is that by doing this process with you Nina, i can directly sense that life will flow, "Hannah'' and my life won't disappear or get flattened as I first feared, I can relax more into the reality that 'I' don't, 'I' can't control- it's an illusion and that I can trust that. It's like stepping off into the chasm and realising there is only a 2 inch drop and life continues but with a lighter feel because "I'm' out of the way. That's what I mean by trust.

Thoughts are thinking, they are coming and going and moving all the time. I know from looking now and from the enquiries I have made that when I look for the one 'receiving' thoughts and 'creating' thoughts, there simply is no one there. Thoughts emerge and fade, 'i' can't decide what thoughts I will have and I definitely can't find the 'one' who is having the thoughts.


with love, H x x x x x x x x x x x x

[Nina45]

Hi Hannah,

There are no further questions.

There has been a suggestion for further investigation about non-seperation.

Are things happening to Hannah or are they just happening? Is there just a flow of experience?

Watch out for a PM! There are Facebook aftercare groups that you can be added to should you wish it!

Lots of Love
Nina
Xxxc