Excited to learn

[raymundo]

No. It's solid.

[Ilona]

Awesome!
Last question

You said earlier, "I feel very much that I am starting from scratch and that I am quite ignorant and rather helpless at life, more so than I had realized."

do you still feels helpless?

[raymundo]

I don't think it matters. "Helpless" is a judgment call about something that isn't real.

[Ilona]

Helpless entity isn't real, but the sense of helplessness, is it still lingering? Or has it cleared?
Sometimes one can get stuck in a state of "I have no control, why to move a finger" hope this is not the case with you.

Can you write a bit about how your normal every day life looks now.

[raymundo]

I have eased up on some of my neurotic habits. I quit smoking. But things aren't terribly different.

I am more likely to notice and marvel at details. I am not so concerned with shielding my ego, worrying what others think of me, or anticipating a grim and humiliating future. I am not "happy," per se. But there is a quiet sense of freedom.

Often, I still feel overwhelmed by excruciating emotions, but there is no central character that is being overwhelmed. These are not warnings of looming disaster. They are just experiences. I will remember them differently than I experienced them, because there is no fixed entity here. Never was.

It is not altogether unpleasant!

[raymundo]

The initial rush of shedding the self has made me feel younger than I have in years. I still have a he'll of a lot to learn.

[Ilona]

Wonderful! So happy for you!
Hope to see you around in Facebook groups for further exploration.
It was my pleasure to work with you!
Much love