Hi Tao,
Finally had a time to dive in.
@ your post from Wed May 11, 2016 6:34 pm:
T: When 'focusing', or polarization happens, is there anything actually focusing? Is any'thing' being polarized? Or is it just that this experiencing appears divided when no actual division takes place?
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T: During focus/polarization, do they actually separate from each other?
Watch this focus happening and see if there is actually a divide, or just the appearance of such.
> No actual division or separation takes place. An experience of polarization arises as a kind of interpretation or description, proclaiming there is a separation.
T: Is there a something other than awareness that awareness can focus on? Or is the polarization simply an appearance in and AS awareness? Is there anything outside of awareness/experiencing?
> Otherness is proposed. It is an appearance. My experience is that it happens IN awareness. (That's why I said in some previous post that seeing is "a inner phenomenon").
Still, I cannot say it is OF awareness or AS awareness.
That's a melt-down point.
A real hot-spot.
It is utterly logical but I cannot say it from experience... or, somehow, I can reffer to a memory of something that happened sometime ago, but not from DE now.
When I go in that, I can hear thin ice crackling.
A mind then plays a trick: I either become unconscious (like I swoon into a nap) or I got jerked out in the name of "something important" -- anything -- like some "annoying" sound or uncomfortable position or any other excuse.
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@ your post from Fri May 13, 2016 6:14 pm
D: Is there anything else beside everything altogether?
T: Can you find anything else?
> As I wrote above, "inside" everything altogether there arises "experiences"...
T: Is awareness/experiencing ever exited? Or is the appearance of separation still just 'experiencing', in its wholeness?
> Can't say. Thin ice. Blind spot. The fuse goes off.
T: Can awareness actually become smaller chunks of itself? Or is it always 'full' of itself, despite the appearances?
> No. It is presented like something-happening-to-someone. Melting down this subject-object separation in DE with question like "Is awareness different from what it is aware of", or "Is there a difference between outer and inner" or between experiencing and experience(s) for me ends in blind spot.
T: Is anything actually doing this focusing? Is it an ability something has?
> It is a happening. A concept that proposes a doersip or the interpretation that there is someone who is doing the DE exercises.
D: I am is potential for all dreams (etc.)
T: Can dreams die? Or is death just part of the dream?
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T: if there are no 'things', can anything actually die?
> That is a metaphysical question. Only dreams can die. The real cannot die.
On the other hand, dreams are not real so nothing really dies.
T: Does awareness ever go anywhere?
> It cannot. But it can become preocupied or immersed in concepts or thoughts. You can ask again here "can it actually be seduced?", to which I can say that that's how I feel it, like being zooming in , than it pops into "ah!" and there is openness again. And again.
Like solidification-dispersion, solidification-dispersion, solidification-dispersion... When I become aware of this proces there is a relief.
T: Are you ever unaware, or is that just a thought?
> Good one. I'd say that unawarenss is a thought, or -- more preciselly -- that it translates as "being-lost-in-thought". The moment it's recognised, it pops into seeing that it have no being and it is not real.
T: Can you find a beginning and an end to 'experiencing?
> No... I can find exiting experiencing (seemingly) by being immersed in experience (and maybe get "lost" in "it"). Again: universal-to-local shift. And the recognition of that shift pops the local "back" to universal, to the recognition it was never really local at all. Like a dream looks real while dreaming. Upon waking, you say: "Ah, that was just a dream".
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@ your post from today, Sun May 15, 2016 8:06 pm
T: Are you in control of when this 'coming to' happens? Can you decide when it happens. Or does it just happen out of the blue?
> No... though I sometimes feel that I can obstruct it by surface activity or excessive interest. Like indulging in a dream seems to prolong it. But it's old religious stuff, probably learned. I can't really say so...
Thnx,
Dev