Would like to be guided by s-p-a-c-e

[donjohnsan]

And no, the fiction isn't graspable :)

[s-p-a-c-e]

Yeah, everything! :) You won the lottery. So, you want to take a day to say goodbye fully :)

[donjohnsan]

Sure. We'll take some last selfies together :-)

[s-p-a-c-e]

Sure. We'll take some last selfies together :-)

One for the album. :D

[donjohnsan]

Alright John, he stood me up, so I guess I'd best close this chapter and let life continue :-)

I noticed that some users join a Facebook group. I'd prefer not to if that's alright. I don't have a Facebook account and would rather not create one for this purpose.

[s-p-a-c-e]

haha :)

Well, see what comes up in response to the following...thank you.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there
ever?


2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from
your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.


3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue?
Please report from the past few days.


4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?


5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How
does it work? What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.


6) Anything to add?



With best wishes,
John

[donjohnsan]

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there
ever?

No. And there never was.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from
your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

Oh man. I'd say it's the idea of an entity vaguely defined, in control and making decisions, inside the body, encapsulated by it like a vessel. The thing that just baffles me about it is how life apparently walks around mostly as 'selves', and keeping the illusion going this way. Can't even really call it an illusion when life is doing this to itself. It's crazy. So I wouldn't say that I was conditioned, or anything like that. That would somehow imply either a conspiracy, or other individuals that could be conditioning me. But there aren't any individuals, even if life plays to be an individual at certain places. It's just a game of some are aware and some aren't - and who knows what other mysteries are "hidden from us" (in plain sight?). Just sheer amazement by the show, and many questions that probably don't have answers.

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue?
Please report from the past few days.

Hmm. Well, on the one hand it is baffling, amazing, a crazy notion. On the other hand it is so obvious I have no idea how I could have ever thought there was an individual 'here.'
But in terms of behavior there doesn't seem to be a major difference. I feel like sharing this, but think I probably shouldn't.....

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

Not sure. It was a gradual process. Maybe the fact that I was looking to get rid of certain things, until I realized there is no one to get rid of these things, and no way to control what is or is not here / arises. It is simply as it is.

5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How
does it work? What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

Decision, free will, choice and control do not exist. I don't really know what else to say about that. They clearly can't without anyone at the controls.
Intention doesn't really exist either, but could be explained as an apparent pattern that the organism seems to be working in. Like the 'intention' to make coffee. Organism gets up, puts on the kettle, and so forth.

6) Anything to add?
Not really.
Warm thanks to John, or me, whatever, for this 'guidance'? But wait, what has been guiding what here? Lol :-)

[s-p-a-c-e]

Cheers - back shortly. /john

[s-p-a-c-e]

Have PM'd you if you could check your inbox. ta, john