Second time here - guidance needed :)

[JamesM]

Hi Tanya :)

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No. There is just the experience.

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

The illusion is a belief that there is an entity who is responsible for feeling, seeing, controlling. That there is an entity outside of experience experiencing. Thoughts and speech introduce the "I" to life. Seems like it is the thoughts who try to rationalize everything, who claim "I made this decision", when in fact the decision was just made.

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

It's a rollercoaster, general feeling is momentarily the same but at the same time there is feeling of some kind of "space" and thought-stories are noticed to be just stories frequently.

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

Maybe the moment where it was realized that there is no "I" outside experience and what that there is no "I" and experience but just the experience.


5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How does it work? What are you responsible for?

Decision: No matter how much thoughts revolve around it, decision just happens without decider, there is no possibility to predict what the decision is before it "happens". Intention: Happens automatically, there might be eg. thought "Today I will do this!" and later it might happen or might not happen. Free will: There is no way to predict which thought or action will happen next, thus no free will. Choice: Same as decision, just happens. Control: There is no "I" who does any controlling. In general things happen without any doer.


6) Anything to add?

Feels like this is just the beginning :)

Thank you,

James

[Tanya-D]

Hi James :)

I'll let some of the guides read your answers to make sure I've covered everything with you. This might take a little while, and they may have some further questions for you.

Sit tight and I'll catch you soon

Tanya

[Tanya-D]

Hi James :)

Two questions have been asked for further explanation . . .

1. Do speech and thoughts have the capacity to introduce an I to life? Please explain.
2. How do thoughts have the power to try and rationalize everything? Do they have that will and control?

Try and answer as fully as you can.

Thanks

Tanya

[JamesM]

Hi Tanya :)

1. Do speech and thoughts have the capacity to introduce an I to life? Please explain.

No. "I" is used in speech as divider to different "persons" (it was not "you" who is writing this, it is "I") as well as an easy way to express things ("I ate a banana" instead of "This mouth opened and closed and teeth went there and tongue there and swallowing happened).

Thought "I" does not point to anything concrete either. Eg. thought "I should go there" meaning these feet should operate at certain way.

2. How do thoughts have the power to try and rationalize everything? Do they have that will and control?

Thoughts don't have any power. Thoughts cannot have any will or control. They just come and go.


James

[Tanya-D]

Thanks James :)

Will pass your answers to my colleagues. We are really busy at the moment, so bare with us! There might be more questions too :)

Tanya

[Tanya-D]

Hi James :)

I'm am very pleased to tell you that you are through the Gate! Welcome home!

Can you give me your Facebook name so we can add you to the After-care Group? There you will be able to engage in deeper looking and meet others on the same path.

If you want to pass your Facebook name to me in a private message, that will be great.

Tanya

[JamesM]

Hi Tanya,

I will PM you :) Thanks a lot for your guiding, positivity and patience :)


James

[Tanya-D]

It was a genuine pleasure, James :)

I will look out for your PM.

See you on the other side!

Tanya