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[cristabella2]

Dear Joseph,

then in this case I can say that yes I know now for sure that there is no separate self. This is absolutely clear to me now. thanks a million for your wonderful help and time!

[Josephkoudelka]

I am traveling until 6 May. Will followup up then.

Joseph ♥︎

[cristabella2]

enjoy your trip!

[Josephkoudelka]

Hi Clara.

Here are the questions we always ask when it is felt that the gate has been crashed. Take your time with your response. There is no hurry.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

5) Describe decision, intention, free will, choice and control. What makes things happen? How
does it work? What are you responsible for? Give examples from experience.

6) Anything to add?

[cristabella2]

dear joseph welcome back
I need some days to answer but I will :)

[Josephkoudelka]

How are you Clara?

[cristabella2]

Hello Dear Joseph

sorry for the long silence. I ve tried several times to put into words the feeling in the past weeks but I am really struggling to find them. This evening might be the right one to try to write about it and push the submit bottom. One month ago, at the time of my last post two very intense experiences took place, but since then, maybe because I was overwhelmed by work-related thoughts and had some field missions (not sure if I mentioned that I am a ngo worker), I could not taste again those indescribable feelings. Let me try to describe the indescribable. In both events I was suddenly into a total state of peace. I m not referring to a peaceful moment (in one of the two cases I was in a taxi in the middle of traffic!) but to a moment where I was basically not existing and things were just happening, like waves. I could feel nothing, nothing had to be changed, there were some thoughts but they were coming and going as much as the rest of things happening around me. It was something similar to a Void, which I never experiences before. I experienced it twice in a timespam of three weeks. there was absolutely nothing like a personal Self, there were just things happening. Like waves, that s the best description I can give it. Waves in the sea. However, after that I did not manage to experience it again. That s probably why I did not give any feedback to you, I expected (yes, "I"again and "expectations" again) this state to "stabilize". Isn't it very silly? I have absolutely clear that there is no such a thing as a Self but still I m trapped into the idea that something has to happen. This means that I m still trapped in the illusion of self , isn t it? Love. clara