sensations involved with the frustration and when they are present.
a feeling of irritation at me for expecting instead of letting everything just be
What are you're expectations of seeking
event though there is the knowledge that expectations will only keep propping up the self there are thoughts that arise which say yes I understand and realise that there is no self and that the thought of I that arises in day today things is just that a thought in the mind stream, there rises a frustration and that even though no separate self is understood ,has this persona truly realised this as there is still the feeling of separateness and not the the feeling and no feeling and knowing that everything is one, the expectation is the waking to the feeling of oneness not through intellect but though genuine experiening
Do you expect to find something other than THIS
no there is the realisation that there is not anything to gain especially as there is no one to gain anything
the whole belief system from following the buddhist path on reincarnation and purification is in tatters and with no self there is no one to do these and even the essence of all being one consciousness there is only one so the only thing that would do anything is the consciousness no separate me that will last of transmigrate, there just this now and no me that would continue once this body ceases, I look at the tankas and buddhist practice trinkets and they no longer have any value, there is however a gratitude to then being a footpath to this I being fortunate to be open to getting to this point where the I is being seen for what it is zero zulch.......there is not a fear anymore of death more a kind of sadness that there is no carrying on and comfort of the so called life of this I, there is also a feeling of gratitude for each day af still being and experiencing no longer that trying to plan for the future and trying make things right whenever the thought comes up to make things right very quickly there is the ah!! everything is as it could only be
good night Vince till next time
love Pat