Just checking in. Can't say there's not been much development along the lines you've been suggesting. Remembering to pay attention to, or keep attention in the body, is like practicing sati. The tricky part is remembering to do it. I've set random reminders on the (not so smart) phone. It helps some, but this will be a very long term practice.Just because a person has seen no inherent self in awareness, thoughts and emotions doesnt mean the trash shouldnt be taken out to the bin and other responsibilitys. But your right who would take care of it? The answer would be life and its inteligents but no one is in control but that doesnt mean we dont still operate we kinda just go and do stuff or dont do stuff. We can fall asleep back to egoic nature even or wake up determining by what we believe and stand for if you didnt believe in the truth of being we wouldnt be talking. Some people believe drinking and sex are lifes highest goals so they end up in bars instead of satsung. But are goal is to not distract ourselves from our truth here. I get angry and sad and do stupid things but the healing of those things is more and more by the day because I am hell bent on feeling everything not because I want to feel like a special person but because I know these things are truly just temporary and fall away and another notch of peace happens in my psyche. Its not an over night thing that we become completely still. Your at the stage where you are starting to see the trick, at this time your best friend is nature or your favorite book on the now to condition you to keep looking where your looking from. Thoughts are tricky because we were conditioned to live by them and never question them but isnt it funny we can do that? It means we are outside of them not completely entrenched by them. Thats good news for us. My head was a circus and it was because I never had someone teach me about the importance of feeling and not bottling up or closing myself off from myself. Your getting it all is asked of you in every moment is for you to be their, not having your mind completely take over but when it does watch that to. Youll see that you can live unflinchingly but watch the flinching you havent failed because if you are life where are you going to go? Just watch and listion and feel inside your skin. Hence why the masters lived in caves lol.
The doubt about having seen through the first fetter is gone. I had a conversation with Todd Lent about this (I assume you either know, or are familiar with Todd), and he pointed out how the problem was expectations around the first fetter falling away. He pointed out the clear indicators that the first fetter/sense of an actual, solid existing self is indeed seen through for the Darrell character.
He suggested getting involved with guiding, to stay engaged with this, in a number of different of ways. What needs to happen in order for me to guide others?