But go to the mirror right now and look.
Wow, that was an interesting experience. At some point freaky, at some point very controversial.
I stared at the reflection in the mirror for about an hour.
In the very begin there was a sense (thought?) that this it’s much harder to believe there is no self, because when you look into your own face, the feeling that this body is you become very strong.
Later there was a feeling (thought?) that I’m not this body at all. And it frightens and the thought “dissociation with the body is not the best outcome I’d like to achieve” appears. “Quite the opposite, I have some issues with the acceptance of my body, the last thing I would like to gain here is the “doesn’t matter” attitude”
And then the next thought-worry appeared, which bothers me from time to time. “If everything is an illusion, all this is more like a dream of the Consciousness, it can’t be true that you can do anything”.
And in general the cycle of these thoughts repeated several times.
Every time I tried to answer the question
Seeing happens, sure, but what "sees" ?
the answer was “these eyes, this body”.
– No, seeing happens you can say through the eyes?
Here I remembered that I already told it in the very beginning of my inquiry and returned to the second page of this forum. And there was a question from you
Going by the pure experience of seeing is it one of noticing instruments as portholes through which seeing happens? Is there an entity looking out through portholed ? Or is it more like just seeing...with the added on thought of "eyes as instruments"?
And during the looking into a mirror it seems like yes. The eyes seem to be a portholes for the abbys which gazes into you when you gaze into it long enough.
And then the question appeared “Do these eyes of the reflection see something?”
– I don’t know. I can only guess that most probably – no.
— And is it similar with everything around?
Lately I quite often have a feeling that everything is just a dream of “my” consciousness and no one sees nothing except for me, who's "subconsciousness" create all this mind game.
To be honest, after this looking into a mirror I feel like I've made regress in my investigation. Because now I have quite strong feeling "I am the body". It's kinda... surprising. =))