What am i?

[Idk]

LU is focused guiding for seeing there is no real, inherent 'self' - what do you understand by this?
There is no self that has control over the reactions, thoughts, actions etc. So in my understanding, nothing the body does can be claimed by a “self". Everything happens on its own, without anyone deciding whether it will happen or not. This is basically my theoretical understanding

What are you looking for at LU?
To be free from idea that there is someone who controls the process. I’ve had an experiences of just being, without a “self” controlling everything. It was a cool and calm feeling, but it quickly vanished, so i would like to make it permanent this time. And also it would be great to have a guide who could help me by asking the right questions. I’m open to practices as well, but i think theoretical work, especially inquiry through questions, would be better for me

What do you expect from a guided conversation?
To be honest, i’d prefer it to be as quick as possible, i don’t really like long drawn-out conversations. For me 3-5 months feels a bit too long. Ideally, would be great to understand the concept and reach the “enlightenment” so to speak, or more likely “freedom” within a month or so. 2 months would also be fine for me

What is your experience in terms of spiritual practices, seeking and inquiry?
I’ve been in theoretical phase for a bit too long, but even in this period, i had a few moments when i had an understanding of what i really am. Maybe not fully, because it was without a "work" behind that, just a few minutes/hours of knowing that there is no one to be found when you look for the “self”. And about a year ago, i started practicing meditation regularly for a few months, (around 2 or 3) and it really helped me understand life on a slightly deeper level. And because of meditation, i kinda started to look into the concept of "self" , but after i moved to a dormitory, i quit meditating. Even tho i started again about a month ago, i don’t practice as often as i used to. And recently, i started to observing the feeling of “self”. For example, I try to notice where the feeling of self is located in my body. where is the true core of it. And i started to realize that its not only separated, but its most power is in the actions that "i" do. To explain it better, i just want to make an example: when i look at the “self” i usually see that its not so When I observe the idea of the separate "self" without any interaction with people, like just sitting quietly, it feels much weaker and almost not noticeable. It becomes stronger when I’m talking to someone or thinking about things, because the concept of "self" is a mental concept. I know its kinda obvious, but i started this practice just a few days ago. So thats where i am right now

On a scale from 1 to 10, how willing are you to question any currently held beliefs about 'self? 8

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