Who am I?

[Brane]

that should not be a problem, because i have your name. I am trying to call you, but it says you are offline

[ColoSkier]

The little red number attached to the chats icon has increased but I get no connection or notice.

[ColoSkier]

can I call you on skype?

[Brane]

try to click on the phone symbol up in the screen, next to chats. It should show you the call history, and i should appear there. You can just call me then

[ColoSkier]

the symbol next to chats is a videocam and it does not show you in call history???

[Brane]

alternatively, we could either try Zoom, but in that case I will have only 30 minutes time for the chat today, or we could postpone the meeting (again Zoom), since Skype does not work. Let me know how it suits you.

[ColoSkier]

the chats icon has a red 4 attached to it but when I click it nothing new pops up in my recent chats. I updated and restarted skype but nothing is happening

I could do 30 minutes on zoom and schedule for another longer meeting at another time

[Brane]

heres the link

Brane is inviting you to a scheduled Zoom meeting.

Topic: Brane's Zoom Meeting
Time: Jun 7, 2023 08:30 PM Vienna

Join Zoom Meeting
https://us05web.zoom.us/j/81697235755?p ... oyTnVYUT09

Meeting ID: 816 9723 5755
Passcode: 5ky84M

[Brane]

Everything is simply happening without any center, or doer. Thoughts are fine. Sensations, emotions are fine.

Can you simply surrender to this (over and over again)without any expectation or need to understand why it so?

Practicing this attitude has had mixed observations for me.It feels quite natural to simply surrender to whatever is happening but sometimes when thoughts arise they can feel like resistance if I don't let them pass right away. I have to remember that sensations and emotions and thoughts are not to be rejected as interference but just recognized and then let them pass by.

How does it feel not to resist anything, allowing also resistance to be here?

It gives me a sense of freedom when I can not resist anything as I go through my day. As I have said before It is pretty hard to keep this attitude all day long as one forgets when becoming involved in a task at hand or an activity that takes over my attention. Of course resistance always intrudes and I have to try to let resistance be there. After all I don't really make a choice to resist-resistance just appears and often leads to self talk about whether the resistance is justified or whether I can just surrender and acknowledge it. Whenever I recognize resistance I try to tell myself that I really have no control over what is happening so I should just let it go.

When you say that there is awareness of the sound, can you find awareness in your direct experience? Or there is simply sound to be DIRECTLY experienced? Stay with this one for a while

When I say that there is awareness of sound it seems that the sound is awareness rather than me having awareness of sound. In other words I can see that sound is directly experienced. Hearing just is. After observing sound/hearing for a while I can see that hearing does not have a doer or a hearer. Sounds just appear and go away on their own and don't seem to have a source or location.

Good. As for the resistance, just turn your attention to the resistance, try to be more specific how it appears in the direct experience. Is it a sensation, is it an impulse to do something else or be somewhere else, or is it a narrative based phenomenon? Usually, it is a mixture of different things, but simply try to be empirical. Get familiarize with it. When you are able to notice it and pinpoint to it, just stay with it, let it be. You could also explore what is conditioning the resistance. Usually, it is some beliefs operating on their own.

Good job with the sound. Just continue exploring and use sound as support for nonduality. When sound ONLY sound. Direct and simple. Stay with that.

[ColoSkier]

Tuesday morning doers not work now-I have a conflict with a doctor appointment. Could we do Wednesday at the same time?

[Brane]

We can then aim for Monday. Otherwise, the week after that. Let me know.

[ColoSkier]

Yes-Monday is good for me also-see you on zoom.

PS: on june 10 I got a notice that you tried to message me on skype on june 7th (3 days late).

[ColoSkier]

I updated my profile on Skype-Apparently they had deactivated my account because I had not used it in a very long time. So skype might work now.

[ColoSkier]

As for the resistance, just turn your attention to the resistance, try to be more specific how it appears in the direct experience. Is it a sensation, is it an impulse to do something else or be somewhere else, or is it a narrative based phenomenon? Usually, it is a mixture of different things, but simply try to be empirical. Get familiarize with it

Resistance to simply going with what is during daily movements often takes the form of distraction where all of a sudden I am involved in a whole different line of thinking frtom ther activity I was previously involved with. This can be subtle and barely noticed until some time later.

The other way resistance can happen is that I get involved in thinking about the resistance and wondering if I really should resist what is happening or go with the flow. This kind of resistance is obviously internal self speak (deciding whether to make or not make a change to the current activity.When I see that I was sidetracked I try to let those thoughts go and resume the path of being with what comes naturally.

I notice that when I am at home taking care of various duties and tasks on my mental agenda I will often skip around and sometimes move to another task before finishing the first one but I usually come back to the unfinished tasks and complete them. This seems to be a common pattern with me that I might jump around with several activities at the same time. I think that is my natural way of doing things without a master plan-just doing what seems to ask for my attention at the time.

Get familiarize with it. When you are able to notice it and pinpoint to it, just stay with it, let it be. You could also explore what is conditioning the resistance. Usually, it is some beliefs operating on their own.

I have not been able to pinpoint what is conditioning my resistance yet. Ego always thinks it knows a better way to proceed so I am trying to question this whenever resistance comes up.I feel like doubt is a major factor in creating resistance to what is.

[ColoSkier]

I am so sorry-I got a last minute doctors appointment on Monday morning so I guess it will wait until next week. Can you meet on zoom Monday or Tuesday June 19 or 20 at the usual time. Please send any addiotional pointers that you think will help me.