Hi! - yes, on FB. I think that would be better.
I am Colette Evans in Truth or Consequences, New Mexico (great name, huh?)
Not sure how I would find you - maybe we can connect there.
xoxo

Thanks for looking into that.

I think I've lost the tread of what's happening here, so I'll check back periodically and see if you've posted.
Thanks for your willingness Sarah. Sorry it was hard to connect.
I will continue on either way with what you've already given me -
Blessings.
xoxo

Hey Sarah,

Two things:
1) having technical problems with this thread, should we start a new one? (subscription stopped and can't re-subscribe, not showing latest post until I hit 'respond')
2) Wasn't sure if I was suppose to report back the 'detailed list' from last instruction to you, or just the ...

PS: - realized I am complicating this. When I was in formal practice full time (prior to nine months ago), I was much more in direct experience. Had to go back to work for $$ reasons and am in much more complexity and compounded experience since. I dislikes that and "I" is more prevalent since this ...

List them in detail.


Would you like me to list them to you, or as an exercise?

The distinctions you have listed are very helpful - I have experienced in the order as you say (sensation, thought, emotion) - and will work in detail on it more. Insistence of "I" whenever awareness is self ...

Ok! - not I am going to backtrack with an earlier exploration, because something is shifting. Before, it was hard to read and seemed theoretical, now it seems relevant...

Before this exploration elicited sorrow -
For instance does it feel like its in the centre or middle of experience, is it solid ...

I mean emotion where I used the word feelings in last post, not sensation.
xoxo

Oh my gosh, I thought the voices were me. I see now they are not.
I am still unclear that the feelings aren't me.

(yes, I know there was never any me intellectually, I seem to working through different layers and ways I/me has appeared to be real despite that intellectual knowing - so I am just ...

So when your sense of you comes with a squeezing sensation in the gut – is the sense of you in the gut also – or is it somewhere else? Where is it when emotion occurs? Does the sense of you move?

I will have to be diligent here - as I know there is something I am missing in awareness, because ...

Insight into "noise": grumblings of disliking, minor irritation, and "I" is mixed up in that.

Im not sure Im understanding you here. Is contraction a label for a sensation or what you call your sense of ‘I’? Or is it a story you have attached to your sense of ‘I’?
Does your sense of ‘I’ come and go? If so where does it go?

Contraction is physical squeeze in gut, and when I feel it, I ...

What do you notice from doing the two looking exercises? Which feels truer?

The first time, it went quicker, it felt in my head, entertaining, even to write "I'm bored" had a quality of dramatic enactment to it, a personality. At one point I thought of an action and wrote that I did it before I ...

So ‘I’ is not permanent? It comes and goes? Where does it go too? How does it come and go?

Contraction comes and goes, I'm making "I" out of contraction ...

You already experience the problem with words trying to explain this – do you see my point here?

Yes, very clear - and yes, have been ...

End of day:

I lost the ball! - not sure what happened to it (dissolved??), so will begin again with your inquiry about where "I" is, because everything is clear, light, and flowing again without center or cause, but given the record... :)

xx

No no! - not too much - the confusion was not a result of your probing, that was excellent! - the confusion is the extreme nature of an aspect of this mind getting flushed out of its hiddie-hole. You were right on the money, and for the first time, I am able to keep this "I" sense front and center ...