Hello Sarah. I figured that we'd exhausted all my recent confusions and I think it's all just the mind trying to philosophise, it's fruitless to keep trying to fulfill the questions because they will just keep coming, and the mind doesn't like the true answers.

So I went and answered the 6 ...

So it seems that the whole point is for 'looking for something that non duality can give me' to stop, but that it comes to a natural end rather than a confused, annoyed, disappointed end, because otherwise the seeking goes on in other places as it did before. It seems to me that the only place I ...

So go look. Watch doing. Keep watching doing happen. Notice what goes on UNDER the thoughts. Is that pointless?
It seems as though thought is never wrong though about what is going to happen next. Like "I think I'll go to the shop now", and then I go to the shop. It's never like "I think I'll ...

What do you think will happen if you don't 'want' anymore? Can you let go of what you imagined - is this a long held want?
What I think will happen is that I won't get the thing I want, I don't know what the thing is anyway, just a vague idea pieced together from other's anecdotes. Can I let go ...

What do you see in direct experience? When you go back to basics what is experienced? Is any of this confusion there?

I see that it's all thoughts but if the thoughts are there then they're there. There is a compulsion to be doing/searching all the time but whatever I do it's empty and ...

There is nothing else but this, but this turns into that, and if you don't take care of the that from the this then the that's just get worse and worse, even if there is no one to take care or not take care of the that.

I get what your're saying but I just have nothing to add.

xx

I totally get what you're saying, and I don't really have anything to say.

The whole awakening thing has been constructed from what other people have said, so what's this website all about? We get this idea of awakening and we come here and we're told it doesn't exist, stop thinking about it, and ...

Maybe 20. It's not that I don't want to feel separate, just that I was expecting clarity from this, and there is none. Maybe because I'm expecting a clear understanding, and that just isn't possible. These expectations are coming from 'awakened' people saying that 'the journey just ended' and ...

Wow, we haven't had any here in the south east.

Yeah I see that everything is experience, there only ever is experience. Thoughts that don't want this experience but another experience are just experience. And there's nothing more to say about it. If I feel separate from experience, then that's how ...

You said that you have the experience of ‘you’ as the observer. And then with this seeing you felt no you as an observer – yes? Do you see that there is no Daniel regardless of whether you normally feel there is an observer or not?
Yeah I can see that.

Now look – do any experiences affect ‘you ...

And is thought placing meaning and importance onto ‘this’ seeing? You say that it probably doesnt mean anything – so without thought – does it?

I don't know if it means anything.

How is ‘this’ seeing any different from any other seeing?
All I can say is that usually it feels like there's ...

And is thought desiring this back too? For it to be permanent too?
Yes.

Well if experience is all that there is – how can you BE separate from it ever? Like reflections crossing a mirror – is the mirror affected by any reflection? Look.
I'm not saying I am separate but that glimpse was a ...

What is thought desiring?
The perspective that I had at that moment, thought wants it to be permanent.

But is there expectation in there? Is there a ‘there is still more’ here? Is it experienced? What else is there BUT what IS experienced? What would want that?
I don't really know. It's like ...

No the aloneness is definitely not negative or positive, I know the word has connotations but it just seemed like it was an accurate description, we don't have a word that describes something as alone without sounding negative lol. It is desired by thought, I couldn't say spacious or closed but it ...

It's like, everything is close, immediate, I thought I'd noticed this already but I hadn't, it's all alone, it feels like everything that is experienced isn't being experienced and yet it is there. Even though I've said these things before, there was still a bit of observer, like in the back of my ...