HI Joyce,
Welcome
Id be willing to guide you. I am also a buddhist of long standing about 25 years.
Let me know if you want to go ahead and Ill start with the preliminaries
Metta Sangharaja

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Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form?
Was there ever?
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No I don't see a seperate entity “self” “me” “I” anywhwere
Thoughts come such as “I think” or “I feel” this or that.
They are just thoughts passing through awareness.
And there never has ...

Hi MB
Yes good finished this morning
Will post this pm after proof reading
Sangharaja

"In DE" would make more sense to me than "through DE", if you can see my wariness about my connotations for the latter?
For you therefore, is "in" an acceptable replacement word for "through" in your above sentence for example?

Ok I see
Yes "it" works.
A lot of the time I am not in Direct ...

Through DE the power of the controlling thought has gone
The term eventually got used because there had been a battle for a few days
But once I sat down and directly looked at what was going on
It dissolved
Also at work there were quieter negative thoughts today
Without any desire to control
In ...

With 100% honesty would it be true for you to say that In your Direct Experience;
'Decisions are made but there is no decider'?
'Choices are made but there is no chooser'?
'The car is controlled but there is no controller'?

Absolutely!

No there is no self doing the controlling
It's a label for doing things , making things happen
There is doing to gain an outcome
There is steering a car, carefully reversing the car etc, it's all control
A doing
So no there is no self or ever been controlling
just control

How do you now see the statement: 'there is no self and never has been a self'' ? Do you agree with it? Mb
I agree
for a moment there was a strong controlling voice identifying with a fixed self.
not wanting negative emotion that I have been experiencing.
Eventually saw through that and it has ...

Also success working with young people aupporting them with family issues
Low confidence anger managment
There was help and support but no me or I
There is quite a lot of emotions connected with these
events but they too are just are what they are
I feel a lot freer of these type of events ...

Nope
Can't have I find ownership of ideas thoughts purely as what they are
Arising out of nothing
I won a lot of races as a kid lot of pride as part of
The British team
But all those thoughts of pride I won approval etc
And gave me a sense of worth
There was never an I or me to own them

No can't find a chooser or decider

Looking with direct experience, When I do something after making the decision to do it I cant find the doer or the chooser.
Yet I am arguing vehemently that this does not make sense, how can something that I have chosen to do and then happens be free of a fixed me.
Then I see that the decision to ...

What do you see? You are now looking inwards – turning the direction of your attention round 180˚ from the objects out there to you the Subject, to the place you (think?) are looking out of. Do you see your face? Do you see anything at all there - any colour or shape, any movement?

Looking in to ...

Hold your hand a few inches above your leg. Say to yourself, "I'm going to tap my leg sometime in the next 30 seconds." Watch to see what heppens. Also observe whether or not thinking "Tap now!" has any effect. Notice exactly what happens when the hand does tap the leg (or if it doesn't).
Tricky ...

Notice that thoughts seem to pop out of nowhere and have no obvious cause. They are a total surprise and you can find no cause or reason for their appearance. It should be obvious you were not involved in any way in the creation of these thoughts.

I have been doing this most of the day taking ...