Hi Sarah

Ok no problem.

Hi Sarah,

I've got some more answers for you ....,

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

Well, I have to say that it was a culmination of things. I was constantly looking for an experience. I had an expectation that something big would happen. But it took a while to ...

Hi Sarah,

I'm going to make a start on those questions now. I may not complete them all today but may do it over a couple of postings of that's OK .

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No. I've looked and can't find a ...

Hi Sarah,

Yes I've seen through the illusion and am ready to have a go at the final questions ..

Rich

Hi Sarah,
The riddles are all of your own making and is created by thought. The mind has a compulsive need to over complicate matters! Do you see this?

Yes I do. I read back yesterday's posting and kind of regretted saying all that because today things feel different. Yes I still get lost in ...

Hi Sarah,

Sorry for the delay but I had to take some time to consider my answer.
I have to say that I do understand everything that you've helped me to look at, and on occasions I do feel that there is no self. However I don't feel this most of the time during the course of a normal day, only when ...

Hi Sarah,

No one maybe – but is there experience? And again how are ‘you’ separate from it? And where does suffering happen? Look.

Yes there is still experience but not experienced by anybody called "me". What experiences stuff and notices stuff is the same thing - the same awareness we talked ...

Hi Sarah


And is there confusion here?

No. Well sometimes when thought says "do you see this, really? Are you sure?"

Who is identified? Or are thoughts just being followed? Who controls this either? Just see that it happens – compare, for a second, what this noticing was like when you first ...

Hi Sarah,

Sorry about this bit of confusion .....

Go back to ‘it can be this simple’. Then look at all of this! Is it thought wanting? What is your experience?

Thought wants an experience. It wants a big bang or something like you suggested.
Thought is saying " is that it then ?" And I see that ...

Hi Sarah,

Having seen that there is no separate me running things, I still tend to end up with thought streams that are the same as before I saw through this illusion. Is this what is supposed to happen? I do notice thoughts arising all the time sometimes I get caught up with them sometimes not. It ...

Hi Sarah,

Do you see it?

Yes. I see it totally. Though I must confess it's not at all what I expected !!

Why – what are you expecting? Fireworks, a big bang, somehow zapped into a different reality…..something else? LOL.

Well I don't know what I was expecting! I think I wrote before that "it ...

Hi Sarah,

Do you see how many decisions are made without thoughts involved at all! And without attention even noticing!

Yes. I can see this especially when there are multiple actions going on at the same time. For example when driving lots of decisions are made and nearly all are automatic ie no ...

Hi Sarah,

Been having a closer look at decisions and I can see that no decision is made by this thing called 'I' or 'me'. With small decisions it's quite easy to see that thoughts follow each decision with some comment or label claiming the decision as 'mine'. But in fact the choice has already ...

Hi Sarah,

How are you separate from what is experienced regardless of whether it is ‘good’ or ‘bad’ and regardless of what is being experienced? Take away the labels – what then?

Yes. You're right. When the labels are taken away, there is just experience. For example of there is a feeling of ...

Hi Sarah,

Don't really know how to put what I'm feeling at the moment. There are times when it feels like I get it completely, closely followed by times when I'm lost again. It is all waves on the ocean - I see that completely now. Just feels a bit like I'm rounding Cape Horn in a rowing boat at ...