It's so good to be home, Fred! And I'm here thanks to you, even if there is no "you". But Fred and his guiding in this story, our mutual story, was really great!

Thank you so much...

So where is this place where I can have a post-gate support if it is needed?

And one additional question. Could ...

Yes, Fred, we can call it "responsibility in the story", I wrote "kind of responsibility" because "being aware there is not "me", I can't be responsible for anything". There is no any responsibility in the real Life, in the direct experience. It's just another dimension, story dimension is still ...

Yes, I can understand what this doubt is about. "How does it look like" it was only an expression but not well-chosen one, I admit. How actions "look" have no relevance, certainly. What I meant was that if some habitual thinking and behaviors remain, some people even after seeing through the ...

Hi Fred,

I think I am ready enough to challenge this serious task :) and answer summing up questions, no need to linger any more.

1. No, there is no a separate entity, "self", "me", "I" at all and there was not anything like that before. There was only the strong belief in separate individual's ...

Hi Fred,

I had to go for a walk after your post. It was so strange for me to admit that yes, I had seen through the illusion. So I guess I am ready for your summing up questions.

Thank you, Fred
Manana

P.S. And you are right about the testimonies, all the more reason they are all different. "My ...

Hi Fred,

this big relief is still here!
I know what is the main obstacle now: all those "awakened people" testimonies which I read before and which are applied to what is going on here. That's why I'm waiting for seeing another picture of the world: incredibly beautiful, fresh and glowing as ...

Dear Fred,

after your last post I felt something different. At last, it was a tangible sense of giving up for the first time. As if somebody told me: that's enough! And all the resistance melted. With whom am I arguing all the time? What is this struggling for? Suddenly I realized that I was just ...

Hi Fred,

I took illusion for the true reality for almost all my life so don't be surprise that some experiences still seem to be direct experiences so far. Especially when you ask me tricky questions about "what is it that feels separated"… :)

My five senses, as always lately, don't point anything ...

It's always like this. You ask me something and I immediately begin to speculate, even not knowing that.

But really, when I turned tv on in the morning and I saw Putin's face I thought: this is where the sense of separation is born. Where the illusion is felt in the strongest way. That's what I ...

Hi Fred,

after pondering a bit on "sense of separation" I'm ready now to describe it.
How is it manifested and when:
1. When I explode with anger sometimes. This anger is "mine" and this is directed against somebody or something else separated from "me" (in habitual family situations, but also when ...

So sorry, Fred,

I had problems with wi-fi where I stayed in Berlin and I was in almost permanent motion that's why I couldn't contact with you. I'm back in Warsaw now and not going to move anywhere for a while.

There is no separation between "I" and Life, because there is no I. But what can I do ...

Hi Fred,

it was really difficult to answer your question "where is the separation between Life and "I". I had to focus much longer than just for one glimpse between various impressions during very busy day in Berlin (visiting my relatives here).
This "I" is not real, it is distorting the true image ...

Hi Fred,

Thank you.
This time "the operation" was much easier. The feeling seemed more helpless, more pathetic even... Very gentle inner conversation: it's time to say good bye. Trees and grass and sky were witnessing. I think everybody understood that the feeling wouldn't be needed any more ...

Hi Fred,

I spent some time with the most unsolicited feeling, as you suggested. It wasn't my pleasure to invite it to the table. I was wondering what could it be that this feeling wanted to protect because I was struggling with this belief of "being not good enough" for almost all my life. And ...

Misunderstanding, Fred. It wasn't my wish to say you good bye. I think I used conditional incorrectly. I meant: If this was it, there would be no point to communicate with LU. BUT I suppose this is not it, so…I should continue this investigation. Is it clear now? I told you my English isn't good ...