Hi Ilona,
Thanks for your lovely message - I liked welcome home! Yes so much to explore. t's been a beautiful day of new spring shoots and clear blue sky literally and metaphorically. My heart feels like one of the buds on the tree bursting open.
I hope I might be able to get to one of your meetings ...

Hi Ilona,

These are the answers to your questions. Easy to feel I'm regurgitating what's been said before, by others recent or from the past (or from recent posts by me). But of course it's not a unique experience, so more a" ooh THATS what they were saying and I didn't get it or thought I had ...

Hi Ilona,
Just wanted to send you a wave as you have been very much in my heart, but haven't replied to your questions, though have written bits.
Apart from the glories of spring to be enjoyed, friends birthdays to be celebrated, I had a meeting yesterday that needed time to prepare, which went ...

Hi,
Reading your note an immediate loud yes came, not thinking or wondering :-)

Yesterday tension and frustration, contraction happening was getting into hissy, frustration, not liking trying to describe experience in words on computer screen. Familiar stuff. Focus there. Thought came as I stopped ...

Good questions as this has been where sticking for want of a better word or 'but.....' arises so taking time to answer with honesty what seems true now, today.

I believed I was the driver. Therefore no driver would mean out of control train. But it's clear there is no driver and never has been ...

Hi Ilona,

Today has been a day of assimilation of the last few days, but with a happy spacious heart. Just noticing.

Sending love

Hi,
Yes so obvious. Similar to the 'I' labelling exercise. Nothing is obstructing seeing, it's just happening, thoughts arise, stories just happening, habitually it seems that I suppose a believing the thought/ story happens, then whole lot of complicated things go on. I think you or someone used ...

The quick answer to what I learnt about labels is wow! yes! to your article!

So pasting some of what I wrote having found somewhere I can connect to the internet.
I did the exercise twice, last night after reading your article which includes the exercise, and this morning when it was easier to just ...

Thanks for your message with further suggestions. Below is the post I wrote before receiving it

My internet connection went, and lots of sleeping yesterday p.m. as I had a bad bladder. Earlier I was sensing into what I called not knowing what to do feeling more. Seems like energy/interest has ...

This morning and yesterday evening noticing a don't know what to do next - not in a tight, pushing anxious way.
What's not happening, at least in a familiar way and degree, is the preoccupation, trying to push and mould an acceptable me or manipulate situation.
Any trouble with out that? No, relief ...

Thanks for you message that came just as I'd had a break from more time this morning with your previous nudges which were helpful.

Yep label games! Am I really that bothered or interested either, except as support to desire to 'see' clearly experience, which isn't proving to be much help.

I don't ...

Hi Ilona,
More things to play with, great, thank you so much. I'd just stopped exploring your last post, which I include below.....onto the next!

Moving my head slowly around the room. Yep no control of the labelling that happens. Sometimes the internal voice speaking, other times the labelling is ...

I was just about to post this when I got your message. Thank you. I will follow your invitation to explore this, and let you know.

Picking out pieces from what I have written today. Still troubled about 'life just happening' no separate thing pulling the strings. How are choices happening?? I try ...

Hi Ilona,

Today I have been noticing as often as I've managed, that yes emotional reactions happen in the same way as bodily reactions (like tripping and rebalancing to not fall over). No one is pulling the strings.

Surprise to find I'm moved and tearful taking in that just as my hand ...

I've been noticing at different times in the day when stories start, and there have been a couple of good triggers that prompted strong stories and feelings, and yes they are about things not actually happening. What was actually happening was ok. How mad to believe what isn't actually happening to ...