Hi Pete,

Is there one there?
No

Now to thoughts, specifically thoughts whose content refers in any way to 'you' as a separate entity. This includes where you might say, 'I feel that this is so/must be so' or 'I believe this is so', which are, after all, just more thoughts. Do you consider that ...

I'm not going to give up on you so long as you're up for seeing no self. So, if this is still what you really want, relax and keep looking. Let everything settle and then let me know what's happening, and answer the questions if that feels right.

I also meant to say thanks for this Pete, it's ...

Hi Pete,

So a while back you instructed me to ignore the thoughts and focus on the feeling of not finding .

Here's what's going on at the moment:

I'm thinking I may have been looking wrong, since the beginning. I suspect I have been attending too much to the thoughts that arise on looking, rather ...

Hi Pete,

Well, this is getting a little silly. Yesterday, I was sure, absolutely certain, and now I'm just as certain that I haven't seen through anything. I almost feel like apologising to you!

Like I say, everything was smooth as silk yesterday, then some doubts - nothing that stuck - then today ...

Hi Pete,

So a few posts back you said:

if, as now seems to be the case, you can't find a self anywhere in direct experience, and you've no doubts about that, and there is only reference to a self in thought, i.e. as a concept, which you know can't be real and needn't be taken seriously, and you ...

Hi Pete,

So, expectations. So I'm realising this morning how troublesome expectations are. Any expectation about this, realistic or not. So I've definitely been labouring with the expectations that my experience ought to be a certain way once I've seen through - in part from talking to friends ...

Hi Pete,

I seem to have 2 beliefs that still have a fair hold:
1) I should not be experiencing emotion like this (frustration, confusion, despondency)
2) I should be able to do something about them

Both beliefs were very present today. Although I know emotions are no different to thoughts and ...

Hi Pete,

I'm back to being extremely uncertain. I'm experiencing doubts, which I am definitely being sucked in by, and taking seriously. Sure, I can see through them when I look, but as soon as I turn away they are back.

So back to looking and focusing on the feeling of not finding.

Anyway ...

Hi Pete,

I've realised that I've been confused about conflict - when I think I should do one thing but am doing something else, or am thinking about something else. I wasn't sure quite sure what I needed to do to resolve the conflict. I've realised that there isn't any conflict - just different ...

Hi Pete,

Thanks for your last post – it was really helpful.

All that will 'work' is to go back and just look, look, look in each aspect of experience where doubt seems to predominate until it's obvious that there's just no self anywhere to be found. The more sure you are, the deeper your ...

Hi Pete,

Just realised more about the doubt I mentioned in my last post. The belief behind it is that if thoughts have any sort of influence at all then I need to be careful which thoughts I attend to or act on etc.

Only I don't get to choice which thoughts I attend to, there is nothing that does ...

Hi Pete,

One of the things I was going to mention yesterday, and perhaps my most persistent doubt is around thoughts and their value (or lack thereof). I can see that thoughts aren't created, or controlled by a self. And I can't see any direct causal connection between thoughts and any decisions or ...

Hi Pete,

The smooth ride may be about to come to an end!

I'm currently experiencing pretty strong doubt about the answer to a number of these questions.

Have you been able to find, a ‘self’ that is the ‘experiencer’?

No, but right now, I am less certain than previously. And by that I mean I'm ...

Hi Pete,

As always, in direct experience:
Does the body experience sensations and thoughts?
Is the "body" just another thought label for sensations (namely tactile & kinaesthetic)?

It's clear that there are just sensations, often quite vague and without any definite shape. The interpretation of ...

Hi Pete,

Raise your right arm (or don’t). In that process of raising the right arm (or not), a decision is made, or at least something happens (or doesn’t). But can you pinpoint the actual moment of choice and find the actual entity that appears to be making that choice? In direct experience, can ...