Thanks B. The initial feedback from the guides is that there is still a story of no-self, as opposed to a real seeing of no-self. They cite your answer to 2. I have been thinking that a change of guide might be good and am trying to make that happen. K

1)Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

2)Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.

3)How does it feel to see this? What ...

Can you re-answer the 6 questions please, just so the guiding team has a clearer picture? You can fill in what you've before, but it would be good to answer from where you are.

Very nice. Let me check in with the team.

Okay. What pushed you over to this point? What changed?

The door is still open for you, friend. If something has brought you here, then perhaps it is best you explore that something fully.

So whatever you will get...

Non-opening of the gateless gate. :)

AH funny, for some reason I am still here, right? Apparently that is just an attempt to postpone something? A waiting for something to happen in the future, but never now?

Excellent.

So again, what are you expecting to get out of this process?

Over 'time', as checking becomes habituated, a non-opening (in the sense that "I" arguably can only view itself) becomes the default, rather than the occasional.

Good. Where is this perception happening? Who is perceiving? Any I in all of this?

Remember, we are not doing anything. Just freefalling, the way things are.

Just today, on the way back, there was this experience of a "distance" to thought; I had this before, but now it was more intense: tought was more fickle, less persisten or coherent and most of the time lacking a feeling of identity. Before that, there was again this idea of "I am not in control ...

Look into and beyond your fever too. Don't let it distract you.

I never really asked you to go anywhere, my friend.. ;)

No... Now.. Here.