Dear Nettie,

Thank you for your guidance and spent time with me. Your questions pointed me exactly were needed. Sure I′ll contact you, it would be pleasure to participate groups which can be supportive now.

Gratitude,
Marin

Dear Nettie,

1)Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
No there isn′t a separate entity ´self´, ′me′ ′I′ at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form. It was never existed. Seeing that everything is presently arising story puts ...

Perhaps life is not figure-out-able.

Yes, to figure out what is going on is impossible task, because our tool to do that is only mind, which is also going on in that, so mind can´t see beyond that.

Life simply happens...
And the objectifying mind spontaneously labels it...
And makes the story ...

One more....
Does it feel like you are an observer or awareness separate from perception?

Dear Nettie,

I was thinking a lot about your last question. Yes, feeling that I am an observer is here, but that feeling like other things just arises. I can′t stop it or produce it. If I observe ...

Dear Nettie,

"Life happens automatically?"
Yes, everything happens automatically without controller anywhere.

" Is there a decider a chooser a thinker?"
No, deciding, choosing and thinking happens and that's all. No one responsible for these actions.

"Is there anything solid or stable or fixed ...

Dear Nettie,

I agree there is no one who can stop or control the feeling of passing time. It's mind's automatical interpretation of changes ih this seamless unitary flow. It seems to me if that flow is just one, changes are observed, but in the same time flow is stil the same so it is changeless ...

Dear Nettie,

What about time?

Time is tricky one for me. My mind understands time as a timeline - everything flows from past toward future. Problem is that I can't measure duration od the "now", so it seems that timeline doesn't really convey reality. If reality is seamless unitary flow, that same ...

Happy New Year Nettie.

I am on vacation right now, and unfortunately my laptop doesn't work any more. I am now using tablet, so can't quote properly. Hope so tomorow I'll be again online with my laptop.

Yes, I am not the thinker. Yes, that feeling that I am the thinker is here without me in charge ...

When I say "I" what am I referring to ? Thats hard one !!!
I see myself as something that perceive everything, thoughts, bodily sensations, feelings, etc. Can not pinpoint exactly where am I, or what am I. I have persistent feeling that I am here or where ever this body is located. Hmm but during ...

Dear Nettie,

OK, No expectations any more!

Can not remember the thougts I had yesterday, only present thoughts about something happened yesterday.
I can not predict which thoughts I will have tomorrow, even I can not predict next thoughts. I can not say when one thought ends and another begins ...

Dear Nettie,

Thanks for the response. I am happy with your guidance, and agree with all of the information from the previous post. I understand process rules.


What are your expectations for this process?
How will it change you?
How will this feel?

During the seeking years I drop all ...

Hello, my name is Marin. Warm greetings.

I want to stop this painful seeking with your assistance.
Another problem is, that I don′t speak English very well, but can understand everything posted here (OK sometimes Google Translator is best friend).

So, my story is… I started enlightenment quest ...