No it just a memory from a first person point of view. No the child doesn't have a self, the child was in an inquiry that arose spontaneously. It is just a memory and just as well may be false, there was never any becoming just change for the child, the child is a dream not a dreamer.

I am starting to get the feeling this illusion has been gone for a while. I am also not sure the difference between being a chooser and being choice less. The only thing I know that is relative to this is that I have a notable memory of me as a child understanding that, instead of having to tell my ...

4 if right now somehow all memories of past, your body, thoughts, location, where givin to yo for the first time right now. All the identification you d have with this information is the illusion, what this information was given unto is pure and true. Idk how else to say this.
6 there is no I, even ...

4 I don't remember the illusion a whole lot but I guess you can say you don't have to command yourself to become or do anything everything that is needed is there,
6the thought of a car is just application of the idea to think about a car, the car I thought about was more so uncovered than created ...

1 nope no I me self, never was.
2 the illusion of separate self is a bunch of expectations that there is something that will be lost at some time, through death or some strange power. It is surounded by fear and we usually don't want to look at fear, so someone usually needs to show you.
3 after ...

I agree this is something that I have seem through. Thanks for working with me.

There is no escoho choosing words or making the movements there is plenty to be written even if it doesn't make sense the connection between the words exists and basically write themselves.
There is no doer but things are being done, not by something that is "dead", what is it? Momentum I guess. Is ...

There can be a doer if I choose so, but things may also happen on their own without any loss in awareness, the way of doing is only meditating if I observe the actions about to be complete they will change their nature, but the action is destined to happen though its form is free from self, cause ...

The I is just a word to me it doesn't trigger any belief, and the doing feels like it come from the gut, but there's hesitation, from where it comes from? The gut also I think. The thoughts are cunning, they follow the feeling closely and have things to say about it, they seem to hide the connection ...

I still feel like I am a doer

Yes there is doubt

I believe so

Yea the me is part of experience

Life stops for no "I" and just as well continue without an I. There are forces creating the experience but they are beyond me

The thought is in the present,I am not sure if thoughts are even separate or the same thought, that has just changed .
In the present moment I did not find an "I" but enjoyed looking.