I feel mixed about having to leave for 10 days without contacting you, quite upset and anxious like I've become a bit dependent on you, your guidance is a reminder of sanity in my craziness, calming somehow even though its challenging, I want to carry on with this inquiry and am wondering whether to ...

Hi otter
2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.
The illusion of separate self is thoughts that attribute experience and action to a sense of 'I', fuelled by a fear that without this I ...

Hello good to have you back, hope you're feeling better, I just got your post today so sorry if it seemed like I didn't reply.

Is there a self in reality at all? In any shape or form? Was there ever?
No, no self, just a sense of self.
When I look there's no separation, selfing happens like seeing ...

Thanks for message, no worriesjust take care, i'm still looking,

What is the liberation?
There is only sensation, thought and presence so I suppose the liberation is seeing that there is only sensation, thought and presence!
Does I thinking stop presence?
No because all thought happens within presence but it feels circular and like trying to fly by pulling on ...

What is the liberation?
Does I thinking stop presence?
What is the difference/ is there a difference between quitting smoking and quitting selfing?
The liberation is not the ceasing of the habit

Sorry complete blank, plus overwhelmingly painful thoughts and feelings.
Will need an extension on this ...

Experience is happening, only thoughts labelling self/ other, time/ space, there is no other possibility but this moment, only the thought that it could be other than this causes suffering. OK so the Truth does piss me off and hasn't yet set me free!
Sorry if that sounds ungrateful, appreciate your ...

1. Is there really a belief in ME?
No, Sensation happening

Does an imaginary being really say anything?
No, Thoughts happening

If we are going to label it cause and effect then what caused what and is there any self anywhere which initiated the first movement?
No, Happening is happening.

2. Do ...

1 Sit with hands on legs, think about moving hand then move it
Thought isn't necessary to movement, it's more like it's trying to guess what's gonna happen then take credit for it.

2 I will decide to move my left or right hand
The hands move when they want to, something just happens followed by ...

Hi Otter,
Yes thanks for that, I looked again and there was still nothing outside presence. I liked the image of talking to someone who isn't in the room. When there's awareness of 'I' thoughts now I picture myself talking to an imaginary pumpkin and feel vaguely ridiculous.
I do have questions ...

Hello precious otter
"Eyes closed body feeling exercise again, is there really a meeting of inner and outer felt?... From this viewpoint it is all outer right... either that or all inner, and you can't have one without the other."
OMG it's all inner, which means there's no outer!? Or vice versa. It ...

I was so happy and excited to get your e mail today, should I rephrase the habitual 'I' speech or is that pedantic and pretentious (eg happiness and excitement happening when reading e mail)?! Dreamt that I understood 'no cause and effect' just a paradigm shift, I really struggle with that one when ...

Just realised I missed the bit about following a link will do that tomorrow

Hi otter,
Can't see a response today so hope you OK?

Been reading gate less gate cashers and wrote down what resonated, a sort of summary;
Breathing, hearing, thoughts happening
No separation between feeling, feeler, felt thing
Labelling continues but belief in self drops away
There is only pure ...

Hi otter,
Looking again for ME the same responses arise 'tension in belly, ache in heart', I don't understand how these aren't bodily feelings and in what part of the body, sorry.
The judge is content of thoughts arising, it's just critical
How would I describe water to someone without labels? Even ...