Somehow when I checked the site for your reply I did not find this reply of 18 feb, and didn't get or see an email notifying that it was there. Now I was going to contact you to see what's up, and there it is.

Yes, sometimes only after a while, and somehow the difference between stories and ...

Or is the question, How much is intellectual, and how much experiential, seeing?

1] Actions: Thoughts don't always lead to actions, no, and what leads to the thought anyway? Say a thought comes: Why don't I ring Esmerelda, whom I haven't talked to for years? If the phone call happens subsequently ...

1) There is not and never was, nor could there be.

2) The illusion of a separate self is an assumption in thinking, which may start from learned thinking patterns from others. (Speaking in the language of this thinking:) Believing our world of thinking, the socially agreed thought-interpreted world ...

Using normal language (what wise americans have called "forked tongue"?) I can say that I have seen the absence of a self to my experience. Although as you said, thoughts still come expressed this way, and are often acted upon as if there were a self, no-one needs to convince me that there is no ...

"WHo could satori happen to?" Isn't that the same as asking who goes through the "gate"? My guess is that before it happens you think there is someone it will happen to, but then it just happens, or it just is (and sees that it always was, actually). So i will have expectations until I consistently ...

Recognising the emptiness of the self-view is not something that can be known by the mind, realised by practice or brought into being by any agent. It is already present here and now as this ordinary awareness.
It'd be great to have a flash of satori and never to be fooled again... but failing ...

This is helpful, thanks. Thoughts can be saying "this isn't going anywhere", "I'm really sad when it doesn't, I'll be happy when I do seem to be getting somewhere with this..." etc, but whatever thoughts say, it seems to be a matter of seeing the truth directly, so that awareness sees itself as what ...

That was revealing wasn't it? Thoughts do seem to take over. Thinking still wants to sort it all out and think in a not-self way.
I practise dropping thinking. Can we conclude anything except that what needs to be seen is not seen clearly enough?
Than you for sticking with this.

I'm trying to see what is really going on, not just give you answers I don't live by or act upon, so I write answers then review them next day, continuing to investigate. So here's what I find about the me of my experiences:

I find a thought about what I'm aware of, the sum of my experiences appear ...

There seems to be a me which is not the form.
Can we look at that?

Re attention: Thought seems to affect attention, in the same way as it affects breath - breathing and attention happen anyway but a thought may change it. No need to assume an I directing this anyway.

I have been continuing with noticing the symphony of awareness, intending to relax any mental ...

is there some thing outside awareness that "sees" awareness or is there simply a process of awaring?
I have observed that "awaring" is just how awareness is - there is nothing being aware of awareness - I am certain of this. But even now as I reflect on this and notice it again, it is as if I ...

What loses sight of the wholeness of experience? Is there something separate from experience that is somehow observing it? Can you find this observer?
ah good point - within the thinking it is assumed there is a Me that tracks what is in awareness, by a thinking-echo - well really by thoughts ...

When noticing the 'symphony' I 'saw' that even LOOKING for a self must be thinking - the sensations are just present and could not ask this question, it doesn't make sense in the context of sensations, only within thinking. That felt significant.

I noticed too how there is a slide from recognition ...

Thanks. Practising this, will report back soon.