Thank you! And...thank you! Xx

Thank you Metta,

Experience is "happiness", "excitement", "gratitude"!

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Dear Metta,

Have tried to answer as fully as possible, though there was some difficulty at times in finding expression!

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?
There never was a self or I anywhere, although thoughts and ego ...

Hi Metta,

Yes, I am ready for the final questions.

There never was a self or I anywhere, although thoughts and ego suggested it was real. There is no self now. I have looked and looked and cannot find this self anywhere, because it never was.

Nat xx

Hi Metta,

Until between 18 to 22 months of age there is no awareness of a self, there is awareness only, if there are children in the park sometimes this can be observed.

Remembered a few days ago that years ago I had read in parenting books about this awareness in babies. That they are so ...

Stay with the emotions as much as possible, ask, what is being lost? Who is there to be lonely, alone? The feeling, the emotion of love was there, awareness was there. Is there an I in awareness ?

Metta,

"I" can now say that nothing was being lost, because nothing is owned or has ownership of ...

Had a lot of emotions earlier with the accompanying thought that they were upsetting. Playing with my son, bouncing on the bed before his bedtime, had thoughts + emotions = "aching sense of loss". So much time has been spent thinking I was investing in him, building for the "future". The thoughts ...

Sit very quietly in a chair ,feet flat on the floor, relaxed. Feel the body breathing, are the muscles tensed? Is there a self when looking within that can be found , when did the self start? Is there a self telling the body to breathe?

Metta, I've done what you asked. On my own in a quiet room ...

Morning Metta,

I also use "I" here due to convention and to avoid confusion. I recognise that "I" is not in the body, nor the emotions, feelings or thoughts because these come and go. I believe that "I" is not a separate self although I don't quite see it yet.

When looking at the I in the story ...

Thanks Metta777,

I have read the disclaimer and agree to it. I have familiarised myself with how guiding through direct pointing works by reading my husbands posts and some of those in the gateless gatecrashers pdf.

In my story I had an unhappy, abusive childhood and chose to identify with many ...

Looking for a guide to see the illusion of self.