Hi Perry –

Thanks :) Final installment so…

5) Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life? Do you make anything happen? Give examples from your experience.

No – from the perspective of direct experience I don’t decide, intend, choose, control events in life. From the perspective of ...

Hi Perry -

Another two questions answered -

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.

(please assume that every I in the below has inverted comma’s around it!)

So how does it feel – it’s been quite an ...

Morning to you Perry.

Thanks for the set of questions – they seem very comprehensive so I will work my way through them and hopefully I can be clear.

1) Is there a separate entity 'self', 'me' 'I', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No – in direct experience there is ...

Thanks Perry - will do, will start on them tomorrow and see where I get to...
Have a lovely evening,
All the best,
Yellow

Hi Perry,

Just to say that it all still seems to make sense today :) A few new understandings unfolding - thoughts in particular continue to run around my head but they seem less weighty, less important than ever. Am more present in experience as it unfolds and meditation is strong and still ...

thanks :)

Hi Perry - thanks for that :)

I think I answered your questions in the third of my mails earlier but actually it was only after sitting with your reply that I finally twigged...and relief! There is now the sense of understanding that I have been waiting for – now I get it! In direct experience, in ...

Hi Perry -
Some further explorations arising from the last experience I reported on last night.
The 'I' only exists when other is perceived as a fixed entity - when I see that experience is not fixed, forever in flow, changing, uncontrolled, undirected then 'I' cannot come into existence because ...

Hi Perry,
An after experience...it just came to me that the 'I' is not even a conceptual translation, its not even that because that would be to make it into 'something' with just another name.
That is as much as I can say at the moment but just wanted to share the extra experience which resulted ...

Hi Perry,

Thanks again for your response and for taking the time to guide me through this, I am appreciating the questions and the inquiry.

Sorry for the late reply today but I have been mulling over the questions and it’s been rather intense.

During the exploration this morning of whether ...

Hi Perry,

Thanks for that. So I have been thinking about this ‘does I make them happen?’ and ‘..so what is I?’ Because if I look closely at thoughts or sounds or experiences that arise and which seem to arise by themselves I cannot find an I – there are just thoughts, sounds etc.

I investigated a ...

Thank-you Perry.
Yes, I have read the disclaimer and that is all okay. Thanks for the advice re copying and pasting – makes sense.
Okay. So what brings me here – a longstanding deep conviction that I and the world are not all that they seem to be and an honest desire to come to understand the veil ...