Dear Paolo,

I have to go away for a week and a half and have been busy preparing for the trip--sorry not to have posted because it means the process seems to lose a bit of energy--I will keep looking and very much hope you will be able to continue with me in 10 days or so,

thanks for your patience ...

Dear Paolo,

It looks like my post yesterday--very minimal in any case--somehow got lost. Something is relaxing around this now--looking, looking--intention to see the truth--

cheers, katie

Whew! Ok, I think I get it--thanks for being so explicit about the logic.

I'm not convinced by the first half of your #3
Those thoughts that appeared were mistaken FOR sensory impressions

which seems to me could also be "Those thoughts that appeared are another sense impression" but I am not ...

Thanks for the gold star, Paolo! I will add it to my collection which I have asked be buried with me when I die.

I'm feeling a bit thick here--what do you mean by "actual stimuli"--are you making a distinction between sensory impressions and mental thoughts?

What is being stimulated? What has the ...

Dear Paolo,

Just realised I didn't give you the information you asked for. So here is as much detail as I can muster.

And can you see that this thought, and it's accompanying feelings (no matter how vivid), is as illusory as your journey to the bottom of the ocean?

yes

Think of a car.

Share ...

Dear Paolo,

Actually I'm perfectly sure that 'i' don't think my thoughts--they arrive, no choice. Imaginations arise, no choice. No thinker...just thoughts. As to what responds to the thoughts when they arise, I am still looking--on the one hand the response is also a choiceless thought and on the ...

Dear Paolo,

I'm phasing in and out of something--it's like being a space where the questions don't make any sense; it's sort of questionless. And then back to something which feels more ordinary--all me-ish, busy mind trying to make sense and failing utterly again and again. No experiencer found ...

Dear Paolo,

Try it also jumping into the sea and sinking to the bottom

Ahoy from the undersea world--actually I found this a bit difficult. I kept getting confused between am I imagining the "real" me or an imaginary me. It took me a surprisingly long time to work out that it was ALL the ...

Hi again,

I had three goes with the 'jump test'.

The first time I felt some excitement and trepidation. I'm afraid of heights and even in this imagining I could feel a sense of vertigo. When I took the step I was suddenly surprised at the firmness of the ground under my feet--like being jolted out ...

Thanks for such a generous and rich email....

So how have things been in your short time away?

I had one day when something about all this really opened up for me. It's hard to characterise, especially now that it is a memory and no longer experiential--but it was something like this: within an ...

Dear Paulo,

First apologies for having slipped away without warning--not sure why--just couldn't manage to go to the computer.

I hope you still have the time to work with me.

see if you can actually find anything outside the present moment.

What is it that you do find in the present moment ...

Thank you so much for all the time and help you have given me--something definitely starting so I am very grateful.

I hope that you are well and that your break is fruitful,

best wishes to you to,

Katie

Hello across the void,

The last response was from 'me' -- Katie -- I posted it without realising the website had been logged into by a friend.

Today has a very different flavour--spacious and very beautiful--definitely an increased willingness to just be in a kind of selfless presence with some ...

Here's what's happening today:

What is this 'I' that hears? Can you find that one and tell me what it appears like?

I can't find anyone who hears--certainly no one who chooses to hear or decides to hear--sound happens or hearing happens and there doesn't seem to be any way to distinguish between ...

Whew!

Just accept the results of what you have found,

You know, 'I' have struggled to deny this result for so long, assuming I must be missing something. This is a big relief. No seer to be seen, no hearer to be heard, no taster to be tasted!

Not much to say right now. As you say, it is a ...