Ilona has these questions for you:

- has the seeking stopped?


This is hard to answer.

The seeking is down from a 10/10 to a 1/10.
I don´t think the seeking stopped completely.

I´m still drawn to listen to LU audios, Ilona meetings audios and Urban Guru Cafe audios.

But there is kind of a ...

6) Anything to add?

Nah, not much to say.

Just a big thank you to Ilona and Sandra.

5) Do you decide, intend, choose, control events in Life? Do you make anything happen? Give examples from your experience.


No, I don´t decide. It´s just what happens.

Deciding, choosing is just a story.

I don´t make anything happen, thoughts arise, actions are taken. No entity in there ...

4) What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

Not giving a shit about expectations, maybe that was a turning point.

Expectations are just another story that reinforces/suggests that theres is an independent entity that can get to somewhere other than what`s arising now.

3) How does it feel to see this? What is the difference from before you started this dialogue? Please report from the past few days.


It doesn´t feel much different.
I just attach a bullshit tag to thoughts. lol

I still take things personally but i know that it´s not really real.
I feel that i ...

2) Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works from your own experience. Describe it fully as you see it now.


The illusion of a separate self is the belief that there is an entity independent of the external world that makes decisions, that has ...

Peço-te que respondas em inglês - penso que não deves ter nenhum problema em fazê-lo (se tiveres diz) - para poder pedir a outros guias para olharem as tuas respostas e garantir que nada nos escapa...

Não precisas de responder a todas as perguntas no mesmo dia se não te der jeito. Tenta ser um ...

Do you want to try the final questions or are you still in 'I don't deserve to be blued' mode?

Let´s go.
Vamos fazer "as específicas". ahahahah

If there is no 'you' then how will that be done?


How? I don´t know. The seeking will drop when it does.
It really is the same if non-dual awareness is realized or not for any particular bodymind.
It´s all wholeness anyway.


Look at these thoughts, they're just more expectations about how ...

If the gate is real what is it made of? And where is it?



Well, for me, the gate is realizing that there is no gate. (ah ah nice paradox)

When the seeking drops, ´i´ will realize that there is no gate. That could be better phrased as Life realizes that it was never marco.



When you are not ...

You are looking straight at the illusion!

Can you SEE there is no you?

Yes, i see that.

Can you SEE there is no Gate?

This one is tricky, i´m waiting for something to change. Some kind of shift.
For me the shift is the gate.
For me there´s still a gate.


Can you SEE that you are only ...

Can you see that these are just expectations and thoughts?

If there is no Marco separated from life, controlling expectations and thoughts, how can the expectations and thoughts that show up don't appear? They are just happening, like everything!


Do you really believe that you don't deserve to ...

Write this down.
There is no self at all in reality. No me that lives my life.
Watch, wait, notice, write- what comes up? Is there fear? Is there doubt? Resistance? Frustration? Something that wants to scream and make a turn away, something that says this is not working? Or maybe there is wow, joy ...

Na minha cabeça, quando a desidentificação com o marco desaparecer, o medo da morte desaparecer (porque nunca houve ninguém que nasceu), when the seeking drops, quando a questão: qual o sentido da vida? desaparecer é que mereço um azul.

My standards are to high? lol
Sim, tens umas expectativas ...

Por exemplo, a Ilona está tão desidentificada com a história que não tem medo absolutamente nenhum da morte.

Ela disse isso numa das meetings: medo da morte é uma coisa completamente ausente da realidade dela.


Aprendemos a chamar nomes às sensações "medo, tristeza, ansiedade, alegria, entusiasmo ...