I'm sorry for not writing for some time. I think I'm not a dedicated individual perhaps because of strong 'I' presence and/or LU method (for me). Ill be seeing Elena on Sunday and will try to mention it to her. For now, I think we should stop communicating as I would not want to waste your precious ...

Yes just sounds are being heard. Nothing else. Every sounds comes in through the ears, that's all. All it feels they seem to exist independently. For example just now I came in to a dentist office and there is TV noise, a fish tank noise and some people chatting noise. As soon as I came in, I was ...

Things seem stationary. When I see around, I just see. The seeing is happening. Pen and calculators are just names. I see people and their faces. There is just seeing before interpretation kicks in. What is there to do just with seeing?

Not sure how to answer it. I see everything thats created by human thought around me without labeling it. It's just is. Calculator is just a black thing with bunch of buttons, pen is a long skinny thing etc. All things are just there dead and inert.

The realization itself isn't a thought but the thought appears and verbalizes the realization.

Good question! Udayan is made up of thoughts no doubt but it sticks. It sticks because.....Udayan thinks he's thinking thoughts?? Meaning A thought itself is thinking that it's thinking the thoughts. wow ...

BTW, I met Elena at a retreat yesterday. It was nice seeing her and doing inquiry with her.

What tells me that the stream of thoughts has stopped?
Cannot pinpoint! Only there is a realization that repeated thoughts aren’t there but I don’t know from where that realization comes.

Is I an entity that interprets?
The interpretation seems to be coming afterwards – thoughts telling what ...

Exercise

When it asked me to write down what I am experience now, this is what I wrote down:
I hear People talking/laughing
I feel my throat as the drinking water runs down
I hear AC unit noise
I hear laptop noise
I hear my pen writing these words-noise
I Feel my feet
I feel pressure on my buttock ...

Sorry for late reply. Will do the exercise and respond.

I appears to be a thinker. As a thinker he's experiencing thoughts and then judging situations presented by thoughts. It then acts according these judging.

You are breathing. You didn't think about your breathing until I pointed it out right? You are now aware of your breathing. What's the difference between breathing and you thinking that 'you' are breathing? Do you require 'you' to breathe? Do you own your breathing? If you tried to stop breathing ...

Belief is rooted in the self or vise versa?
I can't tell. It's more like self=belief.

It will hurt if someone stole the rock because I have associated the rock with ME. The rock itself doesn't change.

Test

I am not sure what self is. I do feel there is something in the head which sort of feels like the self.

Self is an image in the skull. It was reinforced from the beginning by parents, siblings, friends and stranger as they responded to my needs, questions etc. They were talking to someone - ME ...

I believe the statement isn't serious enough itself.

I don't see the self with my eyes but I feel it strongly in waking hours.

Self is an image in the skull. It feels very real to be present when there is pain in the body.