>What was the last bit that pushed you over, made you look?

bringing it consistency back to the fact that it all is thinking. that it's going in a circle from which there is no way out, so the whole circle has to be abandoned. there is no explanation how it is abandoned.

>was there a specific ...

>Is there a 'me', at all, anywhere, in any way, shape or form? Was there ever?

No, there is no me to which thoughts refer. No, there never was, it's just thoughts.

>Explain in detail what the illusion of separate self is, when it starts and how it works.

the illusion of I - i assume u call that ...

I would like to find out what is "this". what am i :) I don't know what else. I seem to be on track... that goes absolutely nowhere, because there is no thinking touched...

>Look into this now, is there an 'I' in that what you are?

no there doesnt seem to be I in that what i am.

>What are you?

i do not know. i think i'm a string instrument :)

FYI. i'll be traveling from 21st-24th and i might not be able to write anything during this time.

It's really good ...

>Look into experience. Can you find and experiencer?

no, there is no experiencer. its illogical but there doesnt seem to be one.

>Any borders between what is experienced and what is experiencing?

there is only experience. but i cant explain it. its burried under thoughts, under even minimalistic ...

>Could it be that you do not exist as a personal 'I'

no there is no personal "i".
i dont see any evidence - outside of thought and assumptions - that i exist at all.

>Question is: *When there is no personal I, what am I?'

i dont think there is "i" in that what i am.
i dont see it
i think it has ...

the thought "i" doesnt refer to anything. but there is a pull into it. into living "the story". the story is begging to be lived, sometimes very strongly.

the image in the mirror is that of the body, it has nothing to do with the "I" to which thoughts refer to, that i doesnt exist, i can feel this ...

>Do you experience sitting in a chair?

no

>Do you experience sitting?

no

>Do you experience a body? If yes, how do you experience the borders between body and not body.

i experience body as a single dot of sensation, one at a time, there is no shape. there seem to be no borders between body and ...

>How can it be your body, when you do not exist?

that's also a good question. it probably doesnt, but it seems real to me.

>Directly experienced: in this instant, with as little assumptions as possible. How do you experience body?

i dont know. i don't? i feel something in some places, e.g. when i ...

Laughter. How would you expect me to write anything that isn't thoughts? :D

Yes, it's all thoughts. sometimes they make me feel bad. ok, let's say, sometimes they make my body feel bad. :) thoughts suck. at one point i found that there is no truth it thoughts. they change all the time, there is no ...

>Too slow to whom?
I do not know. Those are just other thoughts, and they are believed.
>Inconvenient to whom?
inconvenient to “no one”.
>There must be something you can do to make it quicker? Use your free will to choose to >see through this non-existing 'I'. What are you waiting for?

>Or does ...

>Yes it is all thoughts coming and going.
>Are those thoughts believed?

Sometimes they are believed, but it can only be seen in retrospect after something was really uncomfortable, it could be desribed as something stretched and when "it" returns to the "original-much-less-stretched" position then ...

>What is this 'voice in my head'?

thoughts.

>What is this image?

a thought.

>What is this 'I try to speak in my head'?

a thought.

>What was before the sentences were written?
emptines/silence or maybe another thought.

>What is during and after these sentences are read?

thoughts.

>Who is ...

>Don't think of a pink elephant.
>Were there any thoughts of a pink elephant?

Yes.

>Did I just make you think of a pink elephant?
Yes.
>Can I control your thoughts?
Yes, you can in a way. Any read text and otherwise received information (TV, etc.) seems to have impact on the thought stream that ...

>1. Think something of your own choice
>What is experienced?

when i want to say something its like i have to force it a bit, but still i can make it happen, no idea what is that "i", but there is an attachment to that.
then i repeated to myself several times that i want to think about cats. i ...